a fallen star
i cant explain
the funny things that you didnt know
i look at you with such disdain


im still debating over what to paint forstong (contraire' to what rachel thinks- "JUST DO IT ALREADY!!") hahah. badly influenced by music, drama and polkilitics between friends D: -emo moment- im writing more letters to val and joey than ever... while rachy looms depressingly in the background. sigh. im really learning to rely on god now more than ever. and with mike connor (whoot the awesome demon-buster guy) coming this weekend, im sorta expecting more spiritual havoc than ever. i know i have all my demons just dragging me off in different directions but i know if nothing else, i can trust in God(:


all these thoughts locked inside
now you're the first to know

emotional turmoil. ive just caught up with one of my really old but close friends, you know the kind where you can laugh and fight and cry together? yeah. it hurts that he's just gonna die like that, at the hands of the misunderstanding of another friend. oh gosh. i feel so helpless, so fricking helpless. and to think i pushed him to the brink D':

when darkness turns to light
it ends tonight
it ends tonight

i feel like crying ;-; dont say anything. its just,,,,,,, so not veg right? but then maybe thats where i'll draw my inspiration from.

just a little and
?time will make this right
too late to fight
it ends tonight.

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: Manic Depressive You have extreme cycles of highs and lows. Sometimes you feel like you don't know who you are. One week you could be very hyper and happy and the next week you are slow and depressed.
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
Paranoia
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have?

FOR CURIOUS PEOPLE WHO KiNDA NEED PROOF


hahahah. i had a post i wanted to update but tis stuck at home and im using the school coms ;D
ITS FREE PERIOD!!
:D

why arepeople falling sick so much? yes seriously. like val and now rachy (lol but shes usually sick). hmhm last time i used to get fever every two weeks PUNCTUALLY. like on thursday night it'll start then i'll miss tingxie on friday 5678D but then my mum found out so she sent me for some op and now i cant die even if i want to D:

roarrrh. i have to do chinese but im SO not feeling like doing it): laoshi's threatening to minus 5 marks per day so i guess i really HAVE to start... i shall upload my posts when i get home ;D


well anyway, i think i actually like school! like, look forward to it;D cos even though i havent even done half my homework when it started, i guess i missed everyone so much it didnt matter. things are looking better, even though rachy's leaving. ive found solutions for my problems (not all, but most) aaaand... ive found my chinese AND chem book that i 'lost'! (looks pointedly in someone's direction) hahah. God is finally answering at last-and maybe thats why im starting to blog again(:

OH NO THERES SEXS ED and stupid rachel didnt come today D: [see jjang blog] i shall not elaborate;)
now to write those letters... hahaha.
LOVE,


[hours later]

(YAY IM BACK FROM SCHOOL!!)
Most ("Moste" got edited) Comprehensive Hygiene Survey
[FROM MARIA THE PARIAH AND RACHY]
HANDS
Do you wash them after the potty? (be honest)
omg YES?!? -gross-

Bar soap, liquid soap, or hand sanitizer?
depends. hand sanitizer is for when i go for tuition ;D (HFM)

Nails: long or short?
school: short. i usually chew them off anyway.

Professionally done, or self-maintained?
YOU'D NEVER KNOW;D

File, emery board, or pocket knife?
POKCET KNIFE? thats awfully yx and she isnt known for nmanicured nails ;D

Nail brush?
when bathing..?

Do you bite or chew your nails?
YOZ!

Hand lotion?
A definite must after OBS~

FACE
no thats icky.

Wash in the eveing?
when i bathe XD

Soap or special cleansers?
latter.

Acne?
guess so ;-;

Makeup?
thats ms tang ;D

If you're a man that wears makeup, may we ask why?
NO.
hahahahah

Wash behind the ears?
dont you wash them with your hair anyway?! D:

Any nighttime masks, or creams?
no its uncomfortable ;D

TEETH
HAHAH IF I REMEMBER TO WHICH IS LIKE YES?

Do you floss daily?
nope phobia of it; remember im freaked out by blood? ;D happens after the dentist.

Your toothpaste?
its got blue and green... and white!! YAY

Electric toothbrush, or regular?
Regular.

Mouthwash?
EW. THATS EXTRA!

Whitening strips?
NOHHH

Do you grind your teeth?
NOHH (this is begining to feel like one of those bloody long days)

Do you pick your teeth?
no, see dentist/flossing issue. sentences from vegie dont have "gums" and "sharp" in them :D

HAIR
yup. mint shokubutu i think:D
(okay its my dads. but i dont really care it feels nice)

Conditioner?
Loreal;D the blueish tube 8D

Blow dry, or towel dry?
blow cos usually it doesnt dry fast enough and it spoils my hair if i sleep when its wet. :D
i do NOT sound like an un-tai. XD

Wash it every day?
EW YES??!?!?!?
*nina only washes once a week;D she uses conditioner to WASH and treats hers with olive oil. LOL!

Long, short, or bald?
BAAAALD!! WAHAHAHAHHA

Permed?
when i have no teeth i might consider.

Can you braid it yourself?
no, my dad used to do it:D
[votes him for super-dad]

Can you French braid?
nope.

Bangs?
no, cos my face feels suffocated.

Hairspray or gel?
leave-on conditioner?

Change styles often?
not really im terrified of them hairstylists

BODY
Bath or shower?
shower, i dont have the luxury of a long bath everyday):

Every day?
ONCE A YEAR DOOD!
HAHAHAH^0^

Soap or body wash?
Body wash.

Washcloth, puff, or hands?
usually hands but occasionally; washclothe. or is it a brush?

Back brush?
no, i have ay scrub:D

Foot scrubber?
when i remember / after NNAFA/ OBS

Favorite soap brands?
the body shop:D COS ITS FOR THE BODY, GEDDIT? 8D

Do you shave in the shower/bath or separately?
i dont think i have a moostash.

Shave cream, soap, or dry shave?
i use the lawnmover!! ;D

Do you like bubbles, bath oils, etc?
BUBBLE BATH!!! OOOH 8D but i only get it when i go hotels ):
-thinks of fun sloshing in bubbles and flooding the hotel-

AND AFTERWARDS...
Roll-on, solid, or spray deoderants?
THERE IS? hahah. i dont have BO so i dont use(:

Your brand?
see above!!

Aftershaves, perfumes, colognes, body sprays, etc..?
er, the minty smell of freshness? HAHAH

At what age did mom and dad stop giving or supervising your baths?
i dont know, i think they never did! D:
but then me and my two other sisters used to bathe together anyway so it doesnt matter - by the time youre done bursting every individual bubble you've GOT to be clean

XD

MAINTENANCE
Have you had all your shots?
yes darling this is singapore ;D

Do you do flu shots every year?
no we have other worse things 8D

Do you get yearly physicals?
..School.

Do you get gender specific exams on a regular basis?
whassat?

Cancer screenings?
no? I AM NOT GOING FOR A BLOOD TEST, YOU CAN SHOOT ME WITH A TANQUILLISER DART FIRST! D< Eye doctor? Only for my specs. Dentist? SCHOOL ;D How do you feel? isnt that the doctor's question? hahahah. I FEEL SO BORED COS I DONT NEED TO DO THIS BUT IM BORED AND WORKING UP MY EMO MOODS ;D

I AM DEAD (TIRED)

omg. drama can be tough, but like i didnt know CROSS-COUNTRY AND CHOIR AND DANCE AND BREATHING EXERCISES AND MEP were all included in the darn contract D":


today, we did:
3 laps of running (who runs at 8 am for goodness sake, its just damaging to the mind ;D)
an hour of yoga-like stretching which involves standing partially on our elbows and such
one and a half of controlled breathing (zongs yes ms suneeta raman even controlls how we breathe D: )
AND one hour of "posture correcting and vocal warmups"

which is more exhausting than a 2.4km. trust me. after the first day of camp i slept at 8 pm (i feel like a kid! D:)


sigh. okay its the 3rd day now:/ guess since my vital signs are still working i will survive this ;D

im the pianist- how awesome is that?!?!?! hahaha. okay i know everyones gonna be "0_o" but its damn gay XDD cos
a) i dont bloody have to memorise lines... AND the school song and all the hymns that crazy teacher demands
b) i can sneak away on the pretext of "finding a piano to practice" which i just slack at later
c) im both cast AND crew, i guess... so like i can just float on and backstage as i wish XD and
d) as the pianist i have a cosy view of everything from my perch behind the humunus piano XD

WO ZHEN BANG!
8D

haha well at least theres pumbaa to spazz around with XD her jacket is like, MEGA. wow its like, WOW. hahaha. i call it the suneeta-protector cos just incase ms suneeta's on a yoga-warpath i can always dissapear under it XD

hahaha. anw now im like paring up with this sec 2 called clarisa (zongs i cant spell! D:) cos i cant learn 7 songs in 3 weeks -.- but anw today we snuck into one of those deserted MEP rooms and slacked xD well kinda. cos we took turns practiciing the piano and eating illegal food (dont tell).

okay anways the hols have been sadly, quite slack for me in terms of school work :X im quite scared all of a sudden. better catch up man! but like otherwise, its been pretty fun, having the jjang barbeque, valios' birthday and stuff (:

okay i forgot what else i was gonna say.





ah yeah!!
EVERYONE, RACHYS HAVING HER SOTA AUDITIONS TMR!! SO GO WISH HER GOOD LUCK!
bye!:D (must polish armour for tomorow's seige against the formidable raman instructor)

clarification to maria:
1. i am not les. i am NOT scared of them, so dont try to act like one to scare me.
2. joey and valios are my best best besties cos talk about more private stuff to them than to like, pumbaa you know? like how last time you and rachy shared a book. yes i dont know what happend to yours but the valeries still have theirs XD

[joey] we go to the same church, so maybe thats why we're closer? haha i dont know ~ but i guess its cos we have more things to discuss and rage about, and we both have similar problems so we understand each other.. better! yay:D



but... dont worry. jjang is still my close friend(:
-incase you really dont get it, it means im not going to be shunning anyone or eloping-.-

IM SO SAD. as copied from [rachy]

The Letter A
Are you available to date? NO! 8D
What is your age?: 15 xD the gay age!
What annoys you: my mum. and teachers in school who dont teach but nag.
Appliances that you can't live without: laptop, handphone, CALCULATOR XD

The Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: YES I THINK SO (its a castle, you see)
When is your birthday? EVERYDAY! ahaha. JULY 11
Who is your best friend?: the entire jjang! though joey and valios are still my bestest friends(:

The Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: OMG DAIM!! except that its super ex. but who cares it helped me live through all the blood during the op:D
Who's your crush?: PETER!! (petrelli)
When was the last time you cried?: sunday i think. but that wasnt counted.

The Letter D
Do you daydream?: no HAHAHAHHA LIARRR
What's your favorite kind of dog?: omg golden retriever!! expecially if its so lovable and huggable like clifford(:
What day of the week is it? vegday! XD

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: scrambled with an unbearable amount of light sauce, milk and milo powder.
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: thank goodness no.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: hate someone. too many people are doing it alr):

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: WOW NO I HAVE SUPERMAN-.-
Do you use fly swatter?: AHAHAH!! -crackles with electricity- such funnnn! XD
Have you ever used a foghorn?: no, i havent sailed the titanic-.-
What's your best bodily feature?: im so sexy its hard to chooseXD hahah im just awesome. okay i dont like my legs cos i think they're fat but i think the rest of me rockkkk

The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: oops i cant say its singapore!
Are you a giver or a taker?: a taker o.o
Do you like gummy candies?: no, bad experiences.

The Letter H
How are you?: i hate these questions. obviously in a gaily sarcastic mood.
What's your height?: 164 cm
What color is your hair?: I DONT HAVE HAIR I HAVE TENTACLES OOH 0.0

The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream? vanilla// cookies& cream!
Have you ever ice skated?: `hell yeah! its super duper fun!!! just dont fall on your ass.
Do you play an instrument?: piano, recorder? (that doesn't really count)

The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean?: marshmallow 8D popcorn too!
Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: trust me, you dont wanna hear the cannibal joke.
Do you wear jewelry?: yes i wear earrings XD

The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: "if i told you, i'll have to kill you." muahahhahahah i love james bond gay:D
Do you want kids?: i distinctly remember asking my mum about adoption.
Where did you have kindergarten?: st joseph XD we had ant-eating competitions and i secretly spat out all my vegetables from the afternoon snacks.

Letter L
Are you laid back?: what does SLACKER say?
Do you lie?: of course i do not! O: (if you think about it, you'll never be able to tell by that statement)

The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: Kingdom Of Heaven. something that actually has morals.
Do you still watch Disney movies?: lilo and stitch is the winzorz.
Do you like mangoes?: well they're sweet and sticky. therefore yes.

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: i have too many to count. ;__;
Whats your favorite number?: 333333333 (lol)
Do you prefer night over day?: no, i fall sick a lot at night
What would you change your name to, given the chance?: my name's okay.

The Letter O
What's your one wish?: to meet dbsk.
Are you an only child?: no, i have two sisters and a dog
Do you wish this was over?: what was over, my life? nice try.

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: bleeding, or getting exzema, or having to draw blood, or whatever else that concerns the scary red biological substance D:
Do you like peanut butter?: ... awk-ward!

The Letter Q
Are you quick to judge people?: yes. ask the new teachers i guess...
What's your favorite quote?: i dont HAVE a fave quote. i dont even like quoting -.- its just... spontaneous XD

The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: not really. like when it comes to chem.
Do you watch reality TV?: no time, too busy caught up in reality -- D
Whats a good reason to cry?: when you've just been hit by a tsunami and your govt wont let you receive help? oh that sucks.

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: sun in the morning, rain in the night:D
Do you like snow?: OOH SOUNDS LIKE THE STUFF FAIRIES ARE MADE OF... haha. ive never seen it before, god im so deprived.
What's your favorite season?: SLACKER SEASON!!
haha well we don't have much other than summer here.
What makes you squeamish?: needles and a nurse saying "its your turn now..."

The Letter T
What time is it?: ASK MR WOLF!! XD
What time did you wake up?: 10 something
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: OBS!! ZONGS SO LONG AGO I NEARLY FORGOT WOW.

The Letter U
Underwear or boxers?: if i wear boxers, do i get to box you? 8D aha lameness.

The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: ALL VEGGIES ROCK!! just dont like to eat them ;D
Where do you want to go on vacation?: malaysia usually.
Where was your last family vacation to? malaysia? D:

The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: oh man where do i start. um procrastination.
Where do you live?: DONTYOUDARESTALKME IKICKBETWEENYOURBALLS!

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: yeah some ankle thingy.
Have you seen the x-games?: whatsthat?!
Do you own a xylophone?: nope!

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: yeah man! haha stupid patriotism towards Olson XD cos Olson rules!!
On a hotness scale of one to ten, how would you rate yourself?: oops E just killed the thermometer with my hot hotness:XD

The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?: cancer (what a stupid name; wonder who came Up with it...)
Do you believe in the zodiac?: no, I take delight in proving it otherwise) XD
What's your favorite zoo animal?: THE PENGUINS 8D

my god. im just so frustrated. its the holidays and yet all my parents can obsess over is marks.
FUCK THE SCHOOL
FUCK ALL THE STUPID EXAMS
people who say childhood is the sweetest time of your life really dont go out enough. people say that being a student is so easy and 'thats all you have to do- study.' but really, who are they kidding? its probably the most stressful thing in the world, having to live up to everyone's expectations. nobody slashes their wrists without a reason. already, how many youths have taken the plunge to commit suicide over fallen grades? grades, grades grades... so their parents will have something to boast about at the next family reunion.

as if studying isnt enough, you have to do sports and all sorts of enrichment programmes and do your CIP hours to get into some bloody jc. holiday classes in june. (that itself is ironic) then, your dear principal regularly puts some smartass scholars into your class so that the government will pump thousands into the school's fund, while they tell you its in the name of "bringing up the class average" and making the school supposedly more elite. doesnt anyone care about how we feel?

why is life all about competition? have humans beings already morphed into mindless freaks who spend our miserable lives trying to outdo each other? on an irrelevant note, im begining to feel that the terrorists are misunderstood, especially if the government keeps drilling into us that our results is what makes or breaks us. in blowing up more people, at least there'll be less humans to compete with now, right? so why's the government complaining them -.-

HAI GUYS I AM GOING TO BREAK MY FINGERS AND DO EVERY QUIZ (well nearly, prehistoric ones in greek dont count) FROM MARIARH AND RACHYS BLOG 8D well since i havent been posting due to MYAS and people are sorta screaming... hahah. in a valiant attempt to resuscitate my blog and cheer myself up from a pmsing family and the midyears not the mention the looming OBS that lurks ever nearer,

You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace. (omg rachy's sister? 8D) Your vibe: Kind and gentle (LIES!! THIS IS NOT NARNIA 8D) Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance. (LIES!! I RAN THE ENTIRE 2.4 WITHOUT STOPPING!!!) You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times. (haha yes - gestures to Darwin's Theory: Survival Of The Fittest) You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual. SEE MARIA IM NOT AY BIMBO. IM AN INTELLECTUAL 8D You don't a lot of space, and you prefer to spend time with others. You are a little nosy and intrusive. You sometimes don't give people enough space. (false) I LOVE MY SPACE, NOOB. i think i protect it very much and i hate it when my mum comes around prying. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. I CANT SEE MYSELF IN A CHEONGSAM, OH NOES 8D You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively. HEH HEH DOESNT SPECIFY HOW, EHH?? (quickly hides torture machines)

LINKY: http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourhandwritingsayaboutyouquiz/outcome.php

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

LINKY: http://www.blogthings.com/doyoufollowyourheadoryourheartquiz/outcome.php

Your Beauty Element is Air

You're quirky, fresh, and fashionable in a surprising way. You have a beauty that's all your own, and it changes as quickly as the wind!

LINKY: http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourbeautyelementquiz/outcome.php

I HAVE REACHED THE 10TH POST!! WHOOOT! LETS POP A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE XDD

haha okay. 10th post for cowsinbluesky(o: all hype for rachy i guess.. i stopped at 255 posts on the prev blog! ^0^ okaaay. i must learn to update more. how sad.

rrrrrrh! my mum was being such a bitch today.
she was all "you guys never do any house work"
AFTER she forced me to wash up the plates and pack all the beds and empty dustbins AND do the frickin laundry.
ROAR
my gosh. i cant wait till im 21.
THEN
i'll move to las vegas
open a casino
probably a bar
and have topless dancers
and give dear old mummy a heart attack so i can live in peace after that -.-
-pissed-



my mum is being such a pmsing freak! and now i have no mood to blog ): in that sense, i kinda peifu rachy (not in a bad way). how the hell does one stand to do emo posts?! D: normally i just shut it up. which gives some people the illusion i have the perfect life and yadder yadder D<> but no, i dont. though i love my life (well mostly) the most maddening thorn is my mum. freak. she ruins my day with her pointless nagging and repeating of words and complaining. i just cant stand her and this is one of the rarer posts where i do any bitching D<>


sighs. i think i wont bother rethinking about her nagging D<>stupid stupid stupid. im going to watch more of those silly korean movies and think of purple ponies.
ta~