FM STATIC - T0NIGHT

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me... tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

GOD I LOVE THIS SONG.
even though the guy who sang it looks like a dork
but the music makes up for it(:

whahahaha i am spamming in the com lab with clarinda maria and poon ;D
gen's playing some pathetic funny guess-the-sketch game on facebook and we're all hysterical over it, much to everyone elses' dismay. hahaha so much for doing work.



HE HE HE HEH
me and pumbaa just did the evillest thing on earth using maria's darling email account (which was left so vulnerabily open) hahaha. POOR RACHY 8D


-a day later-


wheeeeeeeeeee this is so retarded. im back in the com lab to actually STUDY!! haha okay maria and mandy are just slacking. tsktsk i shall do chinese then pheesics:D

I LOVE THIS!!
haha. jason mraz songs are to DIE for! well not literally.
this is gonna be my new happy song!(:
:D
i want it... :X

I WANT A RED JERSEY NOW!(:

haha after being inspired by nana's red MAN U jersey D: -envious-
today was national-day-something, which in my opinion is total crap cos even the teachers ponned it. pffft. but still, for those forced to come it was a rather gay affair with performances that dont make sense and Ms Su Of The Pe Department playing pictionary to herself. shannen decided to profess her (spontaneous) love for singapore suddenly and valios was a beng JOHNNY TANG but it was super good cos she got "beaten up" by an invisible wife:D
VALLY YOU ROCK!!


hahah. yes we used it to catch up on the maria and valios:D it works it works it works!!!:DDD i ended up punching maria with the superman thing cos AHAHA WE WERE GOING TOO FAST nah, i didnt see her:D

then in 3I (my class) we were so pooped from the sun we just threw our carcasses all over the tables:D yes like so unglammyily (WOW NEW WORD) in a vain attempt to cool down. we were peacefully changing out of our clothes and stuff... when joey suddenly burst into a monologue of "WHY DO PEOPLE COMPARE BOOB SIZE?!?"

joey is great.

hahah so me and valios and maria endured it, then caught a ride from val's parents to the bus stop(: val's so lucky, her dad came to fetch her. and then she wont be around the whole of next week cos SHE HAS OBS CAMP AGAIN! :D i really wanna go and do rockclimbing!! but no such luck its for gb only D:



im quite happy now. came back, crapped with gen over 'ahlians'. and well on the way home (me and joey both take 67) we sorted some stuff floated around in our letters(: yeah i feel at peace with the world and all that jazz:D but i know it wont last la.

THIS WEEKEND
i am going to watch 'SP3CIAL' by the children church people - who by the way are oh-so-cute?
i am going to get gen a paperchase pencilbox. somehow:X
i am going to ARTFRIEND cos mr ong the stupid art-teacher-yet-artfriend-salesman-in-disguise has ordered we stop using his precious paints and go buy our own instead. "GIRLS!! ITS MINE! DONT TOUCH!! ARTFRIENDS HAVING A SALE ANYWAY SO YOU SHOULD REALLY GO BUY SOME."
i am... not going to fall sick. evcen though i have a sorethroat. and a potential brain-fever. RRR.
oh. and i also owe some people small debts cos i couldnt find my wallet this week:
shannen - $1.50
michelle wee - $1
sonal - icantrmb D:


arrrgh i have tuition at 4 so im going to sleep now. i need to catch up on my sleep -that was spent studying chem. usually i rant with emo posts but today's a really happy day(:

Read and understand the instructions below before attempting this quiz.
If you scored more than 30, I strongly recommend some counselling!
If you scored more than 20, you're paranoid.
If you scored more than 10, you're normal.
If you scored less than 10, you're fearless.
If you scored 0, you're full of crap.
After you're done, check if you are absolutely normal or need counselling.

I fear...
[x] The dark - a little, after horror movies.
[/] Staying alone forever - erm, im interpreting this as 'living' physicallyn in an apartment?
[/] Being a parent - nahh, it'll just be gay as my dad and my kids will love me :D
[ ] Giving birth - THE PAIN! but theres anaesthatic now.
[ ] Being myself in front of others - NEVERR!! ahh. its just which side ;D
[ ] Open spaces
[ ] Height - NO I MUST PWN MY DAD
[ ] Black cats - cute.
[x ] Big hairy arses - i dont think i will ever experience ay hairy arse.
Total so far: 2

[ ] Birds
[ ] Fish
[ ] Spiders - I SQUISH THEM.
[/] Flowers or other plants - a rather mild dislike fore gardening, thats all
[ ] Being touched
[ ] Fire
[ ] Deep water - either OBS had no effect in instilling fear or i just dont watch enough titanic
[ ] Lakes
[ ] Silk - now thats just paranoia;D
[ ] The ocean - LOVE IT!! *see above
Total so far: 2.5

[x] Failure - i hate letting people down.
[ ] Success - neverrr!!
[ ] Thunder/Lightning - used to. then i decided not to be like my dog.
[ ] Frogs - no i raised tadpoles before ;D
[x] My boyfriend's dad - haha no unless hes not like my dad.
[x] My boyfriend's mum - yes ooh MUDDER-IN-LAW
[ ] Rats - dont think so.
[x] Jumping from high places - OBS FAULT!! ;D
[ ] Snow
[ ] Rain
Total so far: 6.5

[ ] Wind
[x] Crossing hanging bridges - once again, instilled after OBS rope-climbing thingy
[ ] Death - not at all, i know exactly where im going(: i think its more of the Dying part.
[ ] Heaven - *see above(:
[/] Being robbed - a lil. though if its been a shitty day with PMSing ee and my piano teacher screaming, i would fear for the guy due to potential sterility.
[x] Falling - from where? high places?
[ ] Clowns
[ ] Large crowds of people
[ ] Men
[/] Women - bitches only.
Total so far: 9.5

[x] Having great responsibilities (ooh definitely)
[x] Doctors, including dentists - DENTISTS YES
[ ] Tornadoes - WAY COOL TO SEE ONE
[ ] Hurricanes - WAY COOL TO SEE ONE
[ ] Incurable diseases - die then die loh. i want a pink-insided coffin. it'lljust be quite hard to leave behind everyone, im sure no one from jjang is in heaven and i'll be all alone quite miserably until like 80 years later? hahahah. GOD FORBID.
[ ] Venomous snakes - where the heck are you supposed to get one?
[ ] Sharks
[ ] Friday
[ ] Ghosts - i have a crazy notion that ghosts are just misunderstood, and need a little love
[x] Poverty -yeah . quite natural.
Total so far: 12.5

[ ] Halloween
[x] School - dont like it 'cept for friends AND STONG :D hahah
[ ] Trains
[x] Odd numbers - i never liked mean numbers.
[ ] Even numbers
[X] Being alone - yes. see the one about poisonouse snakes.
[x] Becoming blind - oh dear. neverrr!!! thats like beethoven becoming deaf, which he did and go crazy.
[/] Becoming deaf - not as bad, quite a good excuse at times! :D
[X] Growing up - TOTALLY
[ ] Monsters under your bed
Total so far: 18

[ ] Creepy noises in the night - i have learnt from a Potential PrinceSS's Complete Guidebook To Ruling that if one ignores the noises, one will reallise how foolish it is and one will not be scared. SO FORCE THAT HEAD UP HIGH!! [aish. "if you dont let it scare you, it cant."]
[x] Bee stings - yeah, SHARP POINTIES THAT DRAW BLODD?
[x] Not accomplishing my goals/dreams - kinda, but you learn to twist them into making you do better
[x] Needles (EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE)
[ ] Penis (ehhh)
Total: 20


DIAGNOSIS: borderline-paranoia.

this is a real butterfly. well, was. then the world got to her, so now she's lying on a tissue less fragile than her in the hands of a stranger in a faceless subway.

i am so depressed. and you know what, i reallise that i can be depressed and high at the same time. its like, i experience one but act the other to balance things out. OH MY i really do have issues D;
today i felt really bad and was silently ranting at God. sometimes i think he ought to be shot and sometimes i think I ought to be shot. gosh this is confusing. im bitter that i failed physics cos of careless mistakes that in the end i couldnt find anyone to blame (and clifford was at home so i couldnt take it out on him). ROAR i hate my class!! i am going through such a shitty time with them now cos they're all nerds. THEY ENJOY STUDYING. while i just cant DO as well as them.

D':

then to make things worse on sat chloe forced THE TALK on me (i bet angel set her up for it) and while now i feel better, ive got a feeling its gonna leak out btwn the awesome threesome gerald angel and chloe. haha okay i didnt mean to imply anything now;D... but like yeah. i have difficulty letting friends go out of my life-more than anyone else i guess. i still remember people whom i havent seen or spoken to in like, 5 years? and i miss them. i think of my children church friends almost everyday, when we were too young to feel bothered by anything other than a lack of sweets. chloe was like [DDDDD :] with her jaw hanging on the floor, all "oh my goodness something something you should something something something you know its like something something..."


sigh. im just tired. i need a break, a refreshing something thats enough to shock this shit out of me. a hundred years ago i would baulk at even falling to this stage. i know im gonna crash and burn, and ive been sending out distress signals but maybe people just dont recognise them. perhaps its time to take a nap.. just lie still.. shut out the sirens around... and not move until eternity is over.

I WANT
black specs.


hahah what else. i cant never remember them when i do a list.