3 strange things of today.

one. during svc, somehow my parents ended up sitting REALLY NEAR us. gaah! well that and someone else. in the end i changed seats to elsewhere far far away, small brandon's usher-controlled section i think. but anyway, it wasnt bad at all! i should do it more often. really felt the spirit, i cried during worship anw. its something that hasnt happened in a long time. (: (: (:

two. RANDOMNESS!
THERE WAS A BLEEDING BOOK FAIR AT EXPO.
you HARDLY SEE BOOK FAIRS.

1 BOOK FOR $5
5 BOOKS FOR $20

with books like HITMAN and other by renowned authors like gory-grunge Mo Hayder (i have another of his books - Ritual) and DAN BROWN. (cant rmb the rest. THERE WAS CHICK LIT THERE ANW.) so well, i added another star wars book to my collection! hahaha. i like star wars not for the hot actors, although yes Hayden Christiensen is damn hot, but he's also the guy who killed darth vader with his hopeless acting. ): i buy star wars novels for the literature, there's so much that just cant be put in the movie. i think i fell in love with general grievious in that instant. he's such a snarky sarcastic cyborg. baaahahahaha~ perhaps in another universe, i'd have liked to fight alongside him.

three. THREE FOR THE THREE ICE-CREAMS IVE EATEN!!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!! COS. TODAY IS SO. BLOPPING. HOT. and two, ive just got a fetish for doing the forbidden? :/ my parents hate me eating ice-creams so i eat them AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE when i go out. which follow's my life's principles of
"LIFE'S UNCERTAIN, EAT DESSERT FIRST."
:D

okay, its three PLUS ONE MORE! i bought my prom dress today. AND IM GOING TO BE A PUNK FOR MY PROM. AAHAHAHAHA. -THIS IS GONNA BE FUN- im wearing it with my boots and maybe emily's head-dress (if i can steal it or maybe recreate it! XD) although... my dad almost had a hissy fit when i insisted on buying it. apparently he had one of those bloody expensive and formal dresses in mind. (he was actually GUSHING about it with my mom. they saw it at robinson's. at times like these i secretly think he'll make an awesome girl-.-) so yeah.
...
well actually, it was a lil more than a hissyfit, cos he was real pissed and ranting about to gen. i could hear them even from the changing room. ))):

but, ITS MY PROM. i dont see the logic in buying something expensive when,
1) ITS ALL GIRLS. im not officially lesbian. so um. not much to motivation to seduce? HAHAHAHA okay now now, dont take this to heart, im just kidding:D
2) ITS JUST ONE NIGHT. im going to re-wear my dress, hopefully in a less-formal event too. like a party or reunion whatever:D dresses are for accessorising! (OH BIMBO SIDE COMING OUT, SORRY)

kaykay. going to bathe and file my LAST YEAR'S WORK. (yeah im that slow. X)
















LEFT HOTTIE gay couple! not. such emo poses. sigh.
RIGHT k maybe my future best friend willbe a snarky cyborg who has four arms. i think.

this is probably another round of confounded spiritual attacks.

recently, ive been feeling really ... depressed, to say the least. its not the kind that arises out of stress and school. this is the unexplainable gloom that sort ... of gloomies around you? gahh! HOW TO SAY!! O: its not something that i'd like you to experience anyway so i wont bother detailing. [okay. if you're harry potter this would be a dementor to you.]

still, ive been feeling spiritually tired. besides the whole krystle episode, ive just been having really morbid and upsetting thoughts. like, what if Our God isnt really the Real one? you know, things like what if the Allah that the muslims are so insistent about is the Real one?? D: oh gosh, i cant bear imagine.

while there has never been a question that God is very real to me, what if... 'He isnt be there for me? can i put my trust in him, without worrying that it'll be broken?' ...nghhh. perhaps this arises out a rather dark period in my life, where i felt God wasnt there for me at all. i was going through trouble, but i felt God simply wasnt around then, and all his promises for me just weren't coming through. and then i grouched, 'who are we to hold him accountable anyway? its not like we can just march up to an Almighty and demand he be fair, if he doesnt feel like being fair then its like 'SO???? WHAT CAN YOU DO ABOUT IT ANYWAY, HUH?" nothing, really. '





)':

actually, i think i still feel hurt over that, although now i reallise that its just yet another lesson for me to learn. lessons are always painful, but even I understand that God is more concerned for our character than just our comfort. (thank goodness though. or we'd all be wimps. EEEYUR! ) but its still a bitter pill to swallow. i guess im just having one of those ranty moods where i rant. and complain and basically be a childish nightmare. though... -God just loves to do this to me- everytime i complain, he'll send me a message EXACTLY fit for what im going thru, through pastor's sermons or cg or sometimes even secular songs or library literature. somehow the message i pick up will be EXACTLY TO COUNTER ME for it! :D hahahaha. its dryly humourous, i guess. no surprise, today's cg message was about

-BEING A MATURE BELIEVER.

HA HA. i telll you our God has his sense of humor:D so anyway, it felt like a light slap on the hand. i hope i'll wake up.


one thing i must mention though. i know ive been complaining that i wanna change cg, but that im just not growing in this cg. there's no one whos around to mentor me! i mean, HELLO. angel is never there for me! and gerald? im not going to... nah let's face it, im just not gonna. its strange to suddenly pour my questions over him when i hardly talk to him (nope, nothing personal, we just...dont? heh. :) who else is in the cg that has been around church for as long or are as mature+seasoned as them?
but two people came to me today with answers to this.

first was yixuan. (how unlikely, hahaha. we usually just amuse ourselves being creepy) while we were hanging out at KAP, i started telling her about the Krystle thing and about changing cgs. then she told me that actually, she wouldnt really come with me! which is mildly surprising cos last time, she was the one who suggested it first(; she pointed out that hey, what is the cg gonna fall to if we both leave? erm no offence, but gerald and jarrad are rather incapacitated at the moment, (NO NOT THE HEADLESS ONE! THE OTHER ONE, BEING INCAPABLE! dumbass.) and mao is under house arrest or something H1N1-ish.

actually, there's nothing to stop us from walking away... but our conscience. pft. which is both the smallest and biggest thing!!
RAAAAAH!!
(i'll think more and update later.)

second was jiahao! he's taking his A levels in HWA CHONG OMG this year. yeah apart from the prejudice against his school... surprise surprise. i dont think most people know i talk to him online, it hardly shows does it? (well now you know! :D) he just started talking to me randomly, and since we've kind of clicked really well. huh. he's hopeless and smart at the same time! contrary to what isaac thinks- ('sexbomb.' HAHAHA. IRONY MAN!! isaac is just horny.) its reallly rare you meet that side of people.

breaking blocks and wrecking rocks. says:
okie no prob.
i shall be logging off if there're no further issues.
remember:
1. logging off = chopping wood and
2. pusillanimous= frightened even of taking small risks
k got random the Great Vermicious Knid says:
HAHAHAHA!
IS THAT REAL?!
pu-sill-ani-mous.
HAHAHA
SEXY WHOA. breaking blocks and wrecking rocks. says:
2 is real.
its in the dictionary. the Great Vermicious Knid says:
powaaah!
((((:
anyway, GBU THEN!
i need to do amath -.- breaking blocks and wrecking rocks. says:
whats gbu? the Great Vermicious Knid says:
its god bless you.(: breaking blocks and wrecking rocks. says:
game boy upgraded?
haha ok yah the Great Vermicious Knid says:
HAHAHA. NICE TRY.

ta-daaah! my retarded older brother. (yes we've adopted him, AHAHA.)

but anyway, talking to him made me reallise that... YEAH, I DO HAVE SOMEONE WHOS GUIDING ME - HIM! while he's not in my cg, that doesnt mean he cant be my spiritual mentor. i guess? (yes too bad.) hahaha. it seems like everytime we talk, its not small talk but deeper stuff about life. he always has an encouraging word for me, or really powerful verses from the bible. he's different from other people who just scream rainbows and hot guys but not much else. its... kind of refreshing! (:

i was just telling him about my mental unhappiness and some other questions about spiritual attacks. and he told me,
"...record romans 8:28 which is quite useful i think,
like someguy who prayed 4 me said b4 that
a spirit is something you cannot consciously get out of and just recurs,
whereas a mind thing is sth you can take control of."

gaaah. well at least i have half a control over my mind. let's not hope its a bloody spirit. o_o indeed... the greatest battlefield is that of the mind. anyway, other verses we were talking about - Matthew 18:10, romans 8:28, romans 8:25, psalm 34:7. im putting psalm 34:7 here, cos i feel its esp soothing... in the light of schl starting anw. -.-

7. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
8, Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
9, Fear the lord, you his saints, for those who fear him lack NOTHING.
10, the lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who SEEK THE LORD lack no good thing!

isnt it everything we could ask for? i could just be a woolly sheep and roll around in God's green fields forever after i get to heaven!! hahaha.

am i being preachy and rambly? yes i think im digressing!:D ahhh! but i cant stop myself this time, its like when you feel God's talking to you you just cant wait to tell everyone else! it flows naturally, like telling yixuan about my latest hankyung stalking activities or sth. you know, that kind of excitement? i guess this is like Really Holy Gossiping about the bible! hahaha. i wonder what God will say about that when i tell Him! 'tsk! val i know you love me, but you are such a bimbo at times.'

hahahaha.

WELL OKAY, NOTHING LEFT TO SAY SO
YAYERS NOW I WILL DO MORE AMATH.

oh& for linghui - see MATTHEW 10:19-20!
ITS EXACTLY WHAT YOU NEED, DEAR, ABOUT KYM(;



dreaming vanilla and nightmares.

siiiiiiiiiiiiiggggh.. FIR came to our church some time ago and performed this song. its been stuck in my head since. this song is so .. beautiful. somehow, chinese songs that succeed in getting into you are always better than their cheap english counterparts. of course, this is the translated version and nowhere as effective in expression as the original...

YUE YA WAN ~ F.I.R.

The grit of the heavens stars
Carries (with them) our memories
I look back midway
This Qin passage* is boundless and winding
Dream that I’ve passed through the Western Regions
Embodying how many rugged hills of Shandong
Love is like a traveling diary
I will seek its riddle
Look at the tears under the crescent moon bay
Forgotten above the Silk Road

chorus~
Whose heart is it
alone and left behind
Is he still well
How I want to love him
Those everlasting tears
Solidify that one sentence
Perhaps they can evaporate

Whose love is it
That is stronger than tears
Calling softly
(That can) let me melt
Every drop of rainwater
Strengthens into my wings
Running after the person that I love

and because i know you cant read this anyway...
敦煌天空的沙礫
帶著我們的記憶
我從半路看回去
這秦關漫漫好彎曲

夢想穿過了西域
包含了多少的巉嶧
愛情像一本游記
我會找尋它的謎語
bridge~
看,月芽灣下的淚光
在絲路之上被遺忘
chorus~
是誰的心哪
孤單地留下
他還好嗎
我多想愛他
那永恒的淚
凝固那一句話
也許可能蒸發

是誰的愛啊
比淚水堅強
輕聲呼喚
就讓我融化
每一滴雨水
演化成我翅膀
向著我愛的人追吧

omg, this is so cute. i dont know why but i have a sudden love for all this political science nonsense:D OH LOOKIE!! its the YOU HAVE TWO COWS analogy, favourite of every bored kid stuck in a lecture they dont need to understand.
presenting..


You Have Two Cows! <3
heh. just a small sampler here...

Japanese corporation	You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
British corporation	You have two cows. Both are mad. You try to sell them in Europe.
Russian corporation	You have two cows. You count them and learn you have five cows. You count them again and learn you have 42 cows. You count them again and learn you have 12 cows. You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka
Chinese corporation	You have two cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim full employment, high bovine productivity, and arrest the newsman who reported the numbers.
Indian corporation	You have two cows. You worship them until they drop dead.

HAHAHAHAH. DAMN BAD RIGHT. i cant wait for uni now! (:
anyway there's more for those who love it, click HERE!!(((((: its TE' BOMB-UH! oh. unless you're rather sensitive and protective towards your own govt, then in that case you kind of dont wanna...
^W^

ANYWAY, last night for me was-
TRANSFORMERS 2!!!

ohh yeah. it was EXPLOSIVE... but not mind-blowing. kind of makes you wanna sleep in the middle-after one too many shootout scenes, its like a "WHAT WAS HE THINKING??!"-moment.

its like. he's pushing it. not really, cos the plot is too complicated and there's too many themes - GOVT CONSPIRACY!! + alien wars + romance + this random bit where he tried to be all spiritual and honour-earning and stuff. there's just too much going on! [OH SHIT. MORE SPOILERS COMING. DONT READ IF YOU'RE PLANNING TO WATCH!(: ]

firstly. SHIA IS DAMN UGLY. im sorry. but there you have it, i said it:D what's megan fox doing with him!? even if she was once a man. even men-trannies have better taste.
then. TOO MESSY! O: really. michael bay does a great job with all his effects and stuff, but you get a feel that he's getting carried away. sadface for him. there's just too much explosions such that you feel he's trying too hard.

but then... it has some redeeming qualities. like
one. JOSH DUHAMEL! who is sooooo very hot and sexy, as the alternate but minor hero. he's the captain of the elite NEST squad and pretty much the darling patriotic american solider every propaganda office wants you to fantasize about creates time after time. but its still working here:D

two. this cool old' robot - jetfire. [read?] the typical bad-turns-good fella that's essential for every blockbuster. sigh.

Jetfire:

As in the original, this fighter plane crash-landed on Earth a long time ago, and he is a reformed Decepticon now fighting for the humans. His alternate form is the SR-71 Blackbird, the outdated but still-sleek Cold War spy plane.

“He’s old, craggy, forgetful … doesn’t work very well. Can’t transform very well, because he’s very geriatric. They get stuck with him a lot,” Bay says. “He knows the plan of the bad guys, but he forgets all the good parts of the plan.”

three. THE ANIMATION. is mind.-blowing. yes. this is what really has me raving about... IT IS INSANELY GOOD!! even compared to star trek... O: in Tr2, you can see EVERYTHING. there was this scene in the gulf where optimus prime was fighting the decepticon lord- and it was SO clear. you could see the scratches on the metal, the sand, hell-even the textures of the cracks on the stone pillars! OMG. yeah. its there. most animators would have slacked off with detailing and just cover the scene with dust storms. but in Tr2... whoa. (((:


okay, im done raving about Tr2 now! :D hehehe. that's pretty much my whole post. more about other stuff later... (((:

somewhere in vegas, in a swingin', neon, 24/7-sham-or-gay-marriages church...
veg is monologing.

''...SEXY, SEXY MARIA. sigh. why are we hooking up again at 3:33 am? beats me. oh yes, you promised me rum. why rum? ahh. we were both supposed to change to PIRATE BETA! (endorsements and cheap advertisements for CHANGE TO PIRATE BETA LANGUAGE! do it now!!) and after i spent the whole night trying to teach you how, you propose to me instead."
after a considerable pause,
"must be cause of those dratted facebook hearts. seductive little icons. its a conspiracy!!!"

"YE BE HAVIN' A WENCH NAMED MARIA DIOR TAN CLAIMS T' BE YER LONG LOST BALL 'N CHAIN.

Maria has been sayin' you two is hooked. Be this true or has the scurvy dog had too much rum? "

[you press 'AYE!' out of kindness.]
AN ANNOUNCEMENT APPEARS:

"AYE, Maria be barred from the local brothel."

OH MY, MY, MY. YOU START LAUGH SHAMELESSLY.
BUT THEN ON YOUR HOME PAGE,

"Val is eternally bonded by the seas with Maria Dior."

oh gosh, what have i done?????! DDDDD8
AND THEN COS YOU'RE IN PIRATE MODE, THE SCREEN CHANGES TO:

"Ye haven't any more demands fer intimacy, ye ugly mug!"

hahahahahaha. the bloody thing even laughs at you.

OMG, TRUST MARIA TO COME UP WITH SUCH STUFF. [this concerns baking, and that suspicious-looking brown extraterrestial brown pat of goops~]

And you know what? I RAN OUT OF EGGS!!! So this product is completely egg-free. Damn fail right?! I should have checked right?! BUT WHO ON EARTH DOESN'T HAVE EGGS?! (Well, me, apparently.) Argh.

So, to compensate, I added more butter. And then, I decided to add in some orange juice too, cos the alternative recipe looked good. (WTH MARIA! mixing recipes NEVER, NEVER, EVER, turns out well. esp since you're not martha steward) BUT IT SAID TO SUBSTITUTE THE ORANGE JUICE WITH THE WATER. I ADDED IT. Oh well. Uh, egg compensation? *chuckles nervously*

So this concoction was even more watery than its predecessor. Ahh well. IT TURNED OUT OKAY IN THE END~ The smell of freshly-baked cake (Well, to be honest, it smells of freshly-baked fudge, and looks it too.) is filling my nostrils as I type this! Moral of the story: USE WHITEWINGS, YOU CAN'T GO WRONG. Even when you take away a major ingredient, it still smells fine! (Cake too hot to taste.)

but some time LATER...

[/EDIT] THE CAKE IS TOO CRUMBLY!!! RAWR!! And the icing is too sticky. So it sticks to the cake eagerly... and the cake crumbles off. -.- It doesn't help that the cake is about the width of a ricepaper... So narrow! (It's about as tall as the width of 2 of your fingers.) I gave up after a while..
HAHAHAHAHAH!! SEE, DOING ANY BAKING WHILE BEING EGG-LESS IS NOT A VERY GOOD IDEA. gosh. crumbly and sad pastries. (this is a hint to you DAVE. DO NOT GO EGG-LESS).

HAHAHAHH OKAY STILL. its so enjoyable watching maria my infamous home-ed partner be gay. i love her so much man! trust her and her delicious blog to be my lil ray of sunshine. BAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
BAAAAHAHAHAHAHH

GAAAH IM LOOSING IT. too much boredom and people who are full of crap. XD

I LOVE YOU MARIA!!!

okay i shall neopets now. my sexy jelly chomby awaits.

PS, before i leave... theres always this kind of chaos.

the Great Vermicious Knid says:
i was just saving them so i could put it on my blog (dont worry, will credit you)
and then. it was saved as,
MARIA'S CAKE.
MARIA'S ICING.
MARIA'S OWN GOODS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
M Dior says:
LOL WUT
the Great Vermicious Knid says:
DAMN WRONG
M Dior says:
OII
the Great Vermicious Knid says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
IM SO SORRY!!
M Dior says:
VEGGIEEEEEEEEEEEE
the Great Vermicious Knid says:
I DIDNT MEAN IT BUT,....
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
M Dior says:
urgh
there goes my reputation and snaity
*sanity
gosh
aalready losing it
*already
****
dont you just love maria too??????? (;

i believe there are three types of people in my life.
those who cant see and dont really care to;
those who cant see- but wish really hard they could;
and those who can look past the masks of others...
and then wish they couldn't.

contrary to idiotic belief, it isnt really something that you just have, or something that you're born with. to see with understanding, into the depths of why a person is the way he is, is something you have to learn on your own. no one can fully teach you how to read into another person's character. only until you've gone thru similar pains- that you'll start recognising tell-tale signs and subtle quirks that you've once performed yourself.

till then, stop trying to stereotype people for behaving the way they do, not until you've been there yourself.

has it really been seven years?
or is it barely a month?
time flies when im not with you
i still think about you, i do
then feel guilty- dont wanna face
an answer to why i do

omg, this is rare and random. but i have to FAN AND FAVE

its like "OMG OMG OMG" about this webart, The Honeydew Syndrome. what a random name. it doesnt make any sense so stop trying to guess the story line! alright already, gahahhhhahahahahahahaaILOVEITSOMUCH!!!!!- but then, im such a sucker for the Weird and Alternative. sigh.

its so fun to guess who'll hook up, though the names and their genders are... extremely confusing. ahahaha. its short though, only 20 blink-worthy pages by 3 chapters. its so short and sexy, you've got to love it. unless... * ***** ***.

read at your own risk.
yes, alright seriously, if you dont know or dont appreciate whats yaoi dont even touch this.

ps, sometimes, i dont feel im worthy of being your confidante.

I've got my memories, Always inside of me
But I can't go back, Back to how it was
I believe you now, I've come too far
No I can't go back, Back to how it was
Created for a place, I've never known

This is home, Now I'm finally
Where I belong, Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching For a place of my own
Now I've found it Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back

Back to how it was
And I got my heart
Set on What happens next
I got my eyes wide
It's not over yet
We are miracles
And we're not alone

And now after all
My searching
After all my questions
I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home

Now I know
Yeah, this is home
i've come too far
And I won't go back
Yeah, this is home

i dont feel so good. though... chalet was good as fishing. hahaha. slept for 15 hours. dead and sick now. been forced to finish my math and start on physics.

oh gosh. i just counted, and i reallise i have like...
60 FRICKING BOOKMARKS, AND LIKE
$%^&*11 TABS OPEN.

MY POOR MOZILLA. XD

AH WELL. hahahaha KAY most of the bookmarks are retarded stuff or weird people's blogs whom i cant remember to link. then the tabs... ARE JUST EVERYTHING, FROM YOUTUBE TO FF TO A RANDOM STUMBLE-UPON SITE TO THIS PS2 FORUM.

THE LAST TAB IS NEOPETS XD


HAHAHAHAHA KAY TODAY WAS SO RANDOM-UH

THERE WAS CELEBRITY WEEKEND!! 8D
(okay my sister is molesting my toy car. brb.)



ANYWAY. THIS GUY CALLED VANESS WU FROM THE OLD F4 CAME... and his words were damn powahhh! for me at least(; AND THEN LIU GENG HONG AND HIS FIANCE SANG FOR US TOO! AND MS INDONESIA UNIVERSE (whos name is sandra) TALKED A LIL ABOUT HERSELF, AND THEN TOLD US OF HOW SHE WON THE PAGENT, BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, ABOUT GOD IN HER LIFE!!! WHOOOO!! I HAVE NEVER, never, EVER. HEARD A GIRL PREACH SO WELL, WITHOUT EVEN TRYING.

SHE IS THE BOMB.

KAY, NOT SO MUCH PREACHING TODAY THEN. WATCHED TREASURE PLANET WHEN I GOT HOME (oops slacker XD) BUT THEN I FINISHED BOTH BIO AND MATH PAPERS. VERY PROUD OF MYSELF XD HAHAHA. SIGH. havent done chem or physics at all. dreading and not looking forward to those mouldy scumbags of a subject.

WELL TMR WILL BE FUN THOUGH
WE HAVE....
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ART
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CAMP!!!!!
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[FROM 9AM TO FRICKING 5 PM, JUST LIKE A BLEEDING WORK DAY]

AND YES, IM SERIOUS! SO, TO TRICK MYSELF INTO THINKING IM GONNA ENJOY IT, MY DAD AND I HAD THIS EPIC SHOPPING SPREE TODAY IN... SOHU-MART!! ITS IN KALLANG LEISURE CENTRE, TOP FLOOR I THINK. WE RAN AROUND RANDOMLY GRABBING CUTE FOOD OFF THE SHELVES COS WE HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT IT SAYS IN KOREAN. XD

HAHAHAHAHHAA. IM PUTTING SOME PICTURES HERE, SO IF U KNOW HOW TO READ+TRANSLATE... 8)

YAY MARIA LOVES HANKYUNG TOO! ^0^
(NOT LIKE SHE'S GOT A CHANCE OF STEALING HIM FROM ME)
BUT YAY, IM NOT THE ONLY HANKYUNG FAN IN THE WORLD!

FROM RACHY'S NEWLY PUBLIC LJ... A GUIDE ON,

how to exercise.

in the general area of exercising there are several different sections – weights, cardio and the special section in which you come into the gym dressed like you're going to run three miles, lift a ton and do a million sit ups and then leave having done nothing and nobody is the wiser.

to do weights you need a certain amount of presence, but not so much that everyone looks at you and laughs when you strain and pant and groan just to lift the first plate off the stack machine. it doesn't matter if you haven't lifted weights before in your life, but you need to be able to step into the room and your aura should tell everybody you can lift a hundred kilograms with ease so that nobody looks at this newcomer expecting a good laugh when he or she falls over backwards trying to balance the weight of a bicep curl. also, every respectable gym will have a weight machine with the nasty habit of throwing on pounds when you're not looking. the scale will tell you you're lifting two kilograms but as you look away so you can start lifting (the weight machine is cleverly designed so you can never keep an eye on the exact weight you're lifting) it quickly tosses on another four, then as you drop the bar in exhaustion it tugs the extra weight away easily so you can puzzle yourself as to whether you are really as weak as you look. the fun part is, after you go home and wake up the next day, you realise you can't move your arms because you've overexerted the poor buggers.

as for cardio, you need to tell yourself how much you want to lose those pounds. then you step onto the treadmill, run for thirty seconds, realise how tiring it is and then step off. immediately feel guilty and repeat cycle. depending on the speed at which you can hop on and off the treadmill you may actually feel like you're getting rid of that spare tyre, but at the same time you will gain in bad reputation what you lose in fats. (OMG!! HAHAHAHA!!)

the gym regulars will come to think of you as the retard who can't make up their mind and after your third session either call in the security guard to watch you every time you come in or take the easy way out and issue a restraining order.

--unfinished, will finish later--

VAL IS FEELING VERY PLEASED.
VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY.
INSANELY,
UN CON TROL LA BLY,
HAPPY.

let's just say i stumbled on a treasure trove... of things you cant even dream of.




(;

OH LOOKIE ITS 3:55 AM NOW! :D

hehehe. well. i cant believe im still awake, but yes....

LISTENING TO SUJU JUST MAKES ME GRIN.
UNCONTROLLABLY:D

hahahahaha. oh noes... i really cant help it!! thinking of hankyung just makes me wanna break out in giggles. gosh. STILL OMG HE'S SO HOT AND SUCH A GOOD DANCER ~OMO!\

... and back to reality, im so behind my study schedule.








OKAY GOTTA GO DO BIO NOW.

oh, drabbles, when you ever become reality?

i dont know how to explain or rationalize the fact that im deeplly in love with someone who doesnt exist!!:D AHHHHHHHH. maybe in an alternate universe. with black holes, star trek, xmen, superpowers, and other such ... sigh. this is bad. its truly... i love you but-我们是不可能的!!

D':


dear a, i miss you so much when you're not around.
more than i should, naturally anyway.
i can count the times when ive wished you were
so we could laugh together again.
dear b, stop looking at me like that.
you may like it but i dont.
you make my skin crawl, so stop it.
i would wake you from your daydreams
but that's just cruel.
and finally,
dear c. we've just found ourselves cast as enemies. i dont know you, hardly. yet, i feel... if i were to find you on an empty beach where under a rising moon the breeze tickles the willows where time and memory cease to exist where there's nothing but eternal waves crashing on the beach- i'd have liked to be your friend.

Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way
that I say that I need You
This is the way
This is the way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

So this is the way
that I say that I need You
This is the way
That I say I love You
This is the way
That I say I'm Yours
This is the way

This is the way.

HELLO EVERYONE!

HEHEHE.IM FEELING RATHER HAPPY NOW!(: DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT THE WORDS IN THE PICTURE MEAN?

NO?
GOOD 8D
HEHEHE.
newsflash!!! HANKYUNG IS SO UNBELIEVABLY SEXY!! AHHHH!! (and he's painfully good at dancing too.8)

okay.back to other stuff...
IM NOT HAVING ANY HOLIDAYS.
):
raaaah!! june will be spent.... (horror of horrors,) IN SCHOOL. mugging. partly cos im broke so i cant movie or shop as much as i'd like to... but anyway, it'll generally be spent in the art room either mugging or doing art. (which explains why im never online, sorreee DDD8)

but speaking of that...
the art room is a lil cosier now:D sheryll and i felt the artroom was too much of a classroom. we took the liberty of re-arranging ALL the tables into the Ong shape:D HAHAHAHA. WE HAVE TO SIT IN A CIRCLE NOW! sounds like one of those alcoholics-anonymous groups...

JOHN: "hi everyone, my name is John. i am going to quit drinking."
EVERYONE: "...hi John."

HAHAHAHA. mr ong can have the honour of starting the therapy sessions 8D cant wait for monday. that's when he and rachy are going back to school.. lulz. [oh and, i feel the artroom walls are fricking empty. too white. i think i will buy a gazillion posters of superjunior and dongbang and stick them up. and amazing, RACHY is camping next to me! SO WE CAN BOTH HAVE SEXY MEN ON THIS SIDE OF THE ROOM 8D]

hohum. nothing much else. CANT WAIT FOR XUANNIEFACE TO GET BACK FROM LONDON!! with my dratted cream toffees:D hehehe, im such a sugar addict ^0^ and well. for sheryll to come back from shanghai!! ART WEEK IS THE 15TH-19TH JUNE! SEE YOU THERE SEXY!