Saturday, October 31, 2009
♥ 3:21 AM
must get Dashboard Confessional's CD!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh....
sounds like a josh groban and jack johnson slammed together with rainbows and magic.
its just one of those miracle voices.
(omg! capslock friday! i havent had that in... so many fridays! :O wonder what happens if i write my o lvl paper in caps. hehehehee.)
:D
so, tell me what's happened?emath papers were easy peasy tricky. makes you feel really suspicious of AX2 + BX + C. ): but yeah. its all hype, dont worry too much kids. (:
amath papers were ASDF*! hard. but solvable, if you dont loose your head to panic (which i pretty much did, until i gave up on the question, then i could see how to do it.)
yes, i am such a last minute genius.meanwhile. parents are all schrappy on me, while i still love my friends.
joey keeps telling me to be nice, while maria just fails as usual.
studying with amanda. crashing with xuannie.
not sure what im doing with yixuan. but ummm.
kk. chem was easy but i think i made waaay too many careless mistakes.
physics was KILLLERRRRRR!!!but it usually is for me. which is why
I AM GOING TO GET MY A1 FOR BIO! (:<>
grrrrrr.
watched
WildChild on HBO today, and OMG! their prom thing!!! AHAHAHAHA. i should have watched that before my own. pftt. anywhoo, its sooo funny!! especially that crazy hakka war dance thingy. why dont we ever do that in singapore? its madness, but it works like smooth shit. its the best thing we'll ever get to a pep talk... that works.
and alex pettifer is quite cute. (or maybe this is just gen talking.)blehhh. CANT WAIT FOR OS TO BE OVER.
THEN WE CAN HAVE JJANG CHALET
AND DO ALL SORTS OF SCANDALOUS THINGS. (8<>
heheh. you never know what happens at these sleepover things. ironically, it really IS a sleepover. as in, no one's going to be at the jjungle during the day time cos we all have church / dongbangday / shopping / a flight to catch, but we're only meeting back at evening, for barbeque swimming and maybe an x-box.
if nana's brother doesnt find out ;) i dont think anyone will get any sleep.hehehe. more juicy details after the exams.
art d&p was a breeeeeeze! having an all-nighter does work. why am i such a last-minute person!? D:
ah well.(inspiration from Dashboard Confessional's Stolen. its my theme song of the moment.)
'toodles!(:
Sunday, October 18, 2009
♥ 10:40 PM
feel like i could shoot some people today.
wearing
Passarella Death Squadfor days like this, where you just wanna SHOW the world
'fuck off, and stop using up all the oxygen!'. life's often like this.
you wear this not cos you're a homo
but more for a libertine statement
you wear it just to piss your dad off
Monday, October 12, 2009
♥ 6:39 PM
currently: addicted to
norah jone's voice.
watching: so you think you can dance?
thinking: not really.
feeling: really strong, sudden msn withdrawal pangs.):
weather: raining outside. chilly inside.
othersfound:
MARIA I FOUND YOUR TABLE FOURTEEN!!!lost: time.
messy: is my table.
blue: is my uniform
metal: is really tricky to draw.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
♥ 11:07 PM
"Sokka, what exactly do you think we can do?" Katara sighed. "We've walked around the palace so many times, it's getting boring. I don't want to spend the day just sitting around and doing nothing."
"I don't know..." Sokka shrugged. "Maybe we can go out to the town?"
"Why don't you go shopping?" Iroh suggested. "Nothing says fun like sales!"
"But we don't have any mon-"
"I think I will join you!" Iroh announced. He stood up and ushered for them to follow him. "Let me gather some soldiers and arrange a ride for us into town. You two go and get ready! We'll meet at the central court yard in twenty minutes!"
"But, Iroh..." Katara began hesitantly.
"What do we need guards for? Will we be attacked?" Sokka asked.
"No, of course not," Iroh said as he lead the way. "They're for holding our bags!"
Sunday, October 04, 2009
♥ 1:40 AM
grey and black like indefinite storms
more nightmares than i can ever remember.
people, always dying, flying, sitting, crying,
decapacitated, eviscerated, dismembered,
bubbled in acid, burned, or eaten, in them.
its never me, but im always there.
emotionless de sade.
psfthaw. once again,
the world is more fucked up
than i thought possible.
She closed her eyes. Sleep came mercifully fast. In her dream, Yue was there and she said I have to do this. Katara watched the princess walk calmly into the water of the Oasis. She saw Yue's royal finery pooling around her like the petals of a lotus, and heard Sokka pleading as the waters of the oasis flared gold, turned to molten fire. When she looked down the koi fish Tui and La were two dancing dragons that circled Yue's glowing, disintegrating body. I have to do this, I have to do this. Yue said calmly from within smoke and flame. I have to do this.
♥ 1:37 AM
i dont know where along this path i stopped being who i am. (or, used to be? this is quite up for debate. english isnt really made for expressing emotions.)it just feels shocking when i finally reallise it... heheh. it feels good to get back.(:after all the talking ive done this week.. hmm.mind all over the place. feet going no where at all. answers still not coming.but things are looking up.“What’s the point of PR if you’re going to half ass it? Honestly!”
Thursday, October 01, 2009
♥ 1:11 AM
a typical conversation in the household:
walking past gen's room:
val: hey. NICE PANTS. (they're the pink ones with happy bunnies on them.)
gen: you suck!
val: ..well even if i suck, i'll still suck better than you! *catches the pun then makes pervy maria laugh*
gen: -shrieks- mooomm!!! val's-
mom: shhhh!! greedy heart is on!! i cant hear what that hu li jing woman says!
dad: nom noms. quiet girls, go study or something.
:D
hehe. my dad sounds like a total pig, doesnt he? D8 well yeah, he's just really stressed these days. ):anyhoo. i reallise i havent exactly been posting my mind here anymore.
i do feel like im bottling up
alot of stuff, that's bound to explode... D:
still, it hurts, really, everytime people unknowingly ask about it.
i just cant bring myself to tell anyone.
even though i know they're all there for me and stuff, all five of them.
i dont know what im getting into.
im avoiding msn like the plague,
and in school i cant face rae or sheryll anymore,
just seeing them reminds me more than anything.
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small consolation for me though!
thanks to my sudden hermit lifestyle, ive stumbled upon a whole trove of excellent zutaras. its amazing. these bloody writers are totally screwing with my mind, with the crazy emotional and immaculately detailed way that they write. they make you want to think more about life, while making you feel sort of emo and zen at the same time. like i said, they're experts at mind fucking. (honestly, reading ozai's mind about his child abuse and then ursa being a siren? no one can pull that off, but they did, and with much aplomb too.)
im not putting their links here, even if they are seriously amazing.
this stuff isnt suited for below eighteens, and for once i have to agree.
despite my shocking-and-liberal-experiences-are-the-best-way-to-learn stance.
azula's torture scenes take you on a mental spew, and you literally scoot back from the screen. (; // D8
the link is yours only upon request. i strongly suggest clearing your schedule for the day, its emotionally exhalirating but mentally exhausting. i'll prescript only one chappie per day, less if you cant take it.
must get Dashboard Confessional's CD!!!
currently: addicted to norah jone's voice.