MIDNIGHT PANIC ATTACK: jiahao the bigger brother has lost his marbles! D8

PARFUM'e says:
have u read the book finish?
it's all OVER. says:
im on pg 350 of twilight.
it's all OVER. says:
there's nth gay abt the story!
it's all OVER. says:
where got gay stuff???

OH NO.
HE'S BECOME... ONE OF THEM! OH JESS, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU.... ;-; sigh. we have another sucker for vampire-romance. ): eeeeyursh/////

goodnight(:

LOL NANA. WHO SENDS YOU THESE STUFF:D


Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?




Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.




One student, however, wrote the following:




First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.




Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell.. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.




This gives two possibilities:




1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.




2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell,then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.




So which is it?




If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, 'It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,' and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct.......leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting 'Oh my God.'





THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+

HAD ALL DRAMA AND NO SCHOOL TODAY!! :D

went to ...ACJC! their stage is HUGEASS. and ms suneeta is pmsing on us cos the blocking got messed up. D<

then. immensely thick layer of makeup again. stupid chloe (napolean) was laughing at me! D8 quite uncomfortable, since i didnt have remover. bloody thing was on like a mask all day.

to make things worse. STAYED BACK FOR HIGHER ART UNTIL LIKE, 7PM?! with an insane ton of things to carry: laptop+ref books + schl bag + athena's shield and spear. ): how sucky.

okay, im super tired lo! (: GOT TO SLEEP.
at least it says so in my report book. XD

i'll post the marks later, but im really quite happy at my improvement(: hahaha. nights!(:

Mao Rse-Tang, the first chairman of the Chinese Communist Party, was born 26 December 1893. Before his rise to power, he occupied the humble position of Assistant Librarian at the University of Peking.

Coffee is the second largest item of international commerce in the world. The largest is petrol.

King George III was declared violently insane in 1811, 9 years before he died.

At the age of 12, Martin Luther King became so depressed he tried committing suicide twice, by jumping out of his bedroom window (on the first storey).

It is illegal to be a prostitute in Siena, Italy, if your name is Mary.

The Turk's consider it considered unlucky to step on a piece of bread.

The two highest IQ's ever recorded (on a standard test) both belong to women.

Hindu men believe(d) it to be unluckily to marry a third time. They could avoid misfortune by marring a tree first. The tree ( his third wife ) was then burnt, freeing him to marry again.

The Emperor Caligula once decided to go to war with the Roman God of the sea, Poseidon, and ordered his soldiers to throw their spears into the water at random.

The Dutch in general prefer their french fries with mayonnaise.

In Ancient Peru, when a woman found an 'ugly' potato, it was the custom for her to push it into the face of the nearest man.

SUPER LOL.!! I {HEART} http://home.bitworks.co.nz/trivia/human.htm AND ITS ALL THANKS TO GUNA AND THE FABULOUSLY BORING POLY LECTURES. SIGH.

XD

AMATH (DIFFERENTIATION) TODAY WAS TOO EASY. so unbelievably good, it cant be. is that so good its bad? D8

“What’s the matter with your hair?” Yesung asked Heechul, making a face. “Don’t you ever wash it anymore?”

“What’s the matter with your face?” Heechul sniped back. “Why don’t you get surgery.” He tossed his hair. “This, I’ll have you know, is the fucked-up-rockstar look. It’s just too cool for lame people like you to understand.”

Yesung raised an eyebrow. “I won’t argue the fucked-up part,” he agreed.

--

Kyuhyun said, “Ow,” when he was tackled into the door upon entering the dorm. “What the—”

“Kyuhyun,” Zhou Mi exclaimed. “I’VE MISSED YOU.”

“I was only gone for a few hours.” Kyuhyun pushed him off and bent to take off his shoes. “Weren’t you at your singing lessons the entire day anyway?”

Zhou Mi frowned. “No, they got canceled. There was this mix-up and some emergency with—well, I’m not sure. But I was lonely!” His frown melted into a pout as he followed Kyuhyun down the hall. “Where’s everyone else?”

“They’re still practicing. I got to leave early.” At Zhou Mi’s curious look, Kyuhyun grinned, unrepentant. “I told them I was feeling a little sick.”

Zhou Mi laughed and slung an arm around his shoulders. “Kui Xian, what a terrible person you are. Using their affection for you as the magnae.”

“I thought you’d be happy that we had some time together.” Kyuhyun edged away, a hint of a smirk on his face. They passed by the living room, where Zhou Mi’s laptop was open on the coffee table. “Or maybe you want to use all this free time to reply to the fans’ UFO messages. Maybe that’s what I should do…”

Zhou Mi pounced, all smiles and intent. “I don’t think so.”

--

Shindong said, “Wow that is wicked cool.”

Hankyung said, “Interesting. With enough practice…” He tried an experimental move.

Donghae said, “WOOOW. You rock! You are the masta!”

Siwon said, “Uh.”

Ryeowook said, very doubtfully, “Um.”

Eeteuk looked around and sighed. He said, “Oh, we’re fucked.”

Nick Bass said, “Hey, want me to show you that again? I’ll go slow.”

--


HAHAHA. GOES FROM PG TO NC16 BUT THATS OKAY. 8D kids these days dont have enough outside knowledge. sigh. and super junior fanfics are the best place to start;D

WHEEEEE JUST BACK FROM LADIES NIGHT OUT!! AHAHAHA. OKAY WELL DINNER WITH MY DEAR KEZ, LIZ AND A RETARDED GUNASEELAM SEELANGUNA. WHATEVER. hahahahah but it was soooo super awesome! omg. or maybe its just cos we havent been going out for so long. but yeah, we were crapping about everything from slutty chinese sluts to how gunaseelam's brother is such a gossip. hahahaha. and i think eugene (EW.) may even have came up somewhere. but yeah, it was a whacked-out night, we went to esplanade to hear a blues concert (liz somehow got us to the roof, her bf performs quite alot there) and then later we were just strolling along city hall drinking starbucks and crapping. sigh.

THEY'RE THE BESTEST BESTEST EVER. even guna!! whom i just made friends with. hehehe. he's so fricking skinny, wait till the pictures get onto fb. XD


wow. the one week of hols have just passed so insanely fast:D besides drama which takes up my whole daylight hours, i still have like, hw, and then a sleepover at marias (which was so gay and R-rated, cos it involves maria and beds). i think poon has this really incriminating video of me going{ mattress sliding} D8 hahaha.

but well, im deadded out. i inintially planned to use my holidays to catch up on sleep, rest more, get rid of eyebags! but no at this rate i'll just add to them. im quite content with my results, though i felt they could always be better, it was certainly an improvement from last year la. (: okay well, got to do higher art now. sigh. and discuss our next meeting with guna and liz. GOODNIGHT!(:

ps: i havent started on ANY homework yet. shit shit shit.

i suppose the rest are Rated.
because my rantings are really demonic? ahahah.
ummmm. the moans of the unbeliever. pray this falls on death ears.
denial is the most predictable human response. i wonder what happens if you actively choose denial then. is it still denial? or by choosing it, have you already faced reality and decided?

then.
which is worse.
to believe in yourself, but have no one to believe in you-
or to have everyone believe in you... except yourself.

this is exactly what i'd like to know.

what's it like then, to taste everyone's faith but choose none for your own-
or to be so skeptical you believe faith is but a necessary illusion we all make because our minds cant handle otherwise.
as CSLEWIS so cleverly put, ''they were so afraid to be taken in they could not be taken out."
right now, i currently believe that's my predicament.

GOD I HATE THINKING IN CIRCLES
GOD. DAMN. IT. GOD DAMN THIS ALL, SHIT SHIT SHIT HELL WHY IS MY MIND IS PLAYING TRICKS ON ME

save me from this unearthly hour, oh Lord, where the mind wanders far beyond what it should.

WHOOOO SLEEPING OVER AT MARIAPARIAH'S HOUSE1!!
HAHAHAHAH. AND USING HER MIDGET LAPTOP TO

-POON SAYS HI-

BLOG:DD HAHAHAH. ohhh listening to MIROTIC NOW AHAHAHAH WHOOOOOOO~ why am i so high? must be maria and poonie's influence, those two crazy men of the family. sigh. OMG MARIA IS SO GOOD AT AUDITION DDDDD8

'everyone had a cool phone, but stupid changmin had a CORD PHONE!! like what the shit.'

oh maria's slowly counting the money, we have this random impulse to play it. and jojo's joining us:D oh and amazingly poonie can memorize exactly how much allowance we should receive. WOW. ITS 5 x $1, 5X$5, 5X$10, 6x$20, 2x$50, 2x$100, 2x$500 and MARIAS LAUGHING MADLY SO i'm very busy now bye bye

OMG. I HAVE FOUND AN EVEN BETTER VIDEO THAN PREVIOUSLY. THEIR DANCING IS SOOO MUCH BETTER HERE!!! as sara puts it, "[SUJU'S] VOICE IS LIQUID SEXS. I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF THIRTEEN BOYS IN SUITS."

OMG!!! HAHAHAHAHA. I LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM1!! OHHHH... (:

Translation :

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
I I I first
For you for you for you I fell
fell fell fallen baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes are blinding blinding blinding
Breathe is stifled stifled stifled
I’m going crazy crazy baby

[Siwon] Inside the glaze that stares back at me
Inside the glaze it’s as if I’m
As if I’m a guy bewitched bye something
I can’t even escape it now

[Hankyung] The way you look when you walk over
The way you look it’s as if
You came and stepped on my heart on the way
I can’t even escape it now

[Ryeowook] Wherever you go you confidently
Smile, your attractiveness

[Sungmin] A rare beauty and a good girl
Universally thought of

[Ryeowook] Proudly, without stopping
You’re really like a fantasy

[Sungmin] So much that people can’t change their mind about it
I’ve fallen for you

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
I I I first
For you for you for you I fell
fell fell fallen baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes are blinding blinding blinding
Breathe is stifled stifled stifled
I’m going crazy crazy baby

[Donghae] Hey girl gir gir gir gir gir girl i
When I open my eyes I think of you Hey girl
Asleep or awake, the truth is I can only see you

[Kangin] Tell me in your heart I
Tell me did I get a spot
Tell me tell me please
I’m stupid stupid stupid

[Ryeowook] People in my surroundings tell me
I’m too aggressive

[Eunhyuk] In this world that sort of person
Not as though there are only one or two of them

[Ryeowook] You don’t know you don’t know her
Words that they say in jealousy

[Eunhyuk] If you’re jealous of me
Then they are going to lose

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
I I I first
For you for you for you I fell
fell fell fallen baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes are blinding blinding blinding
Breathe is stifled stifled stifled
I’m going crazy crazy baby
I’ve fallen baby

Let’s dance dance dance dance
Let’s dance dance dance dance
Let’s dance dance dance dance
dance dance

[Yesung] Hey will you come to me now
I feel like going to really go crazy yeah

[Kyuhyun] I want to only love you
I will never think of looking at anyone else hey

[Eeteuk] Rather than a lover, a friend
Is what I’d rather like to be

All of your thoughts and sadness
I want to keep

[Eeteuk] As if as if you might not exist
I love you so much
The person that I expect is you
that that that girl

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
I I I first
For you for you for you I fell
fell fell fallen baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Eyes are blinding blinding blinding
Breathe is stifled stifled stifled
I’m going crazy crazy baby

I HAVE THE BIGGEST HEADACHE EVER. AHHHH!!!!

im serious. it feels like the hangover of my life, even though im not drunk, and anw i have a super-low tolerance for spirits:D its just... pain pain PAIN PAIN PAIN AH SHIT. D8 owwww. im so glad im finally home and bath-ed, it feels nice. HEHE.

SATURDAY
was splendiferous. RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~. 8D
first, woke up super late.. at 10 i think. by a furious lingahmoo cos i overslept. and got her asploding at me screaming WHY ARENT YOU THERE YET D8 so like, went super early... and slacked around doing nothing. felt super lethargic and exhausted before cg started...
but anw, cell (or the short bit that i was there) WAS SUPER AWESOME. FIRSTLY, JARRAD LED THE PRAISE/WORSHIP!!! WHOOOO! cos gerald wasnt here this week! well it was... uhh quite a little bad la. but its his First Time SO ITS KAY. oh gosh, that sounds full of CONNOTATIONS:D hahaha! but overall, quite commendable? at least, the way he quickly recovers from his mistakes la, the worst thing that could happen would be to totally breakdown and stop, but at least that didnt happen(:

then well okay, over-stayed and still only got 15 min of message.. then went for bandage. rushed there late to supervise the setup, and im quite glad chloe and I managed to finish it on time. though there was this thing about the balloons, and how all the guys kept kidnapping 2 or 3 each time to play with, so there was a nasty bit of kerfuffling. and then.. CHLOE GAVE THEM A PIECE OF HER MIND!!:DDD hahaha! i tell you, when she finally decides to raise her voice, she's so scary and so powerful it just makes you agreeable to anything she says. ITS HER HIDDEN TALENT, SHHH! she's like some napoleon reincarnate, when it comes to getting things done:D i love working with her. kk back to bandage, so both of us settled the decors, confirmed the kid's CIP hours with the teachers.

WENT FOR BANDAGE ITSELF!:DD it was quite a last minute thing, but i got persuaded by sheryll and rachyface:D my crazy art girls.. hahahaha. IT WAS NOTHING SHORT OF A BEAUTIFUL CHAOS. 8O cos the bands were ROCKING, but the fans were .. ahh. just RABID. esp this huge SJI group of like 50+, there to support their own school. my dad reckons its cos they've never been in a girl's school before:D HAHA. at the end, my favourite band FINDING MICHELLE got... only 3rd place): I LOVE THEIR KEYBOARD/VOCALIST!!! OMG. (its the same guy) HIS VOICE WAS LIKE, LEGENDARY. OMG. i felt myself melting:D its so.... sigh. (((((:

finally got home at 11something. I GOT MY HUNDRED HOURS AND OVER ALR. its like the basic 24 hrs, plus about 20 hours from painting val's preschool, plus about 20 hours from bandage (at least) and then 21 hours from julia chua's church camp, plus some other stuff i cant rmb:D hehehe. super tired, fell into a dead sleep:D


SUNDAY SUNDAY
rain is falling.. haha. somehow, my parents were super early, so reached chc about same time as everyone else. there was some mixup with the seats, BUT WE GOT GOOD ONES ANW, AS ALWAYS(: hehehe. then went for lunch with joey, mao, matthew! (oh lol!), jarrad, dave and YIXUANFACE:D crashed out at mao's house...and did absolutely nothing of use. :D played RABBID RABBITS!XD and then xuan left for her OMG STRIKE FORCE AUDITIONS, WHICH SHE GOT IN WHOOOOO SO PROUD, so shortly after me and matthew left. oh and joey too. felt quite sick, so went home first la(: SUNDAY WAS INCONCLUSIVE.

BUT TMR... WILL BE A GIFT.
MONDAY - FRIDAY 1-5PM: DRAMAMAMAMAMAMA!!! 8DDDDD
hahahaha. im so tired,but wth, i spy one-hand pushups on the horizon DX

WED: VALIOS' HOUSE!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!! might sleep over, dont know... hahaha. i love her sofa, imma marry it:D and her hamsters, omg, ARE THE CUTEST THINGS ALIVE.

THURSDAY IS DY/DX STUPID DIFFERENTIATION TEST. D8 but then i asked for it, it'll help me see where i dont understand, even though i dont need it. its sort of a compilation of whatever ive learnt so far la(: AFTER IM DONE STUDYING FOR IT...
LADIES NIGHT OUT!!! 8D WHOOOOOOOO~ cos i am meeting kez and liz, the two bestest older sisters of mine:D haha. spiritually anw~ they're both from other zones too, so it'll be cool. we're going out for drinks along orchard or wherever.. :D I CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM AGAIN!!! 8O

okay then there's my whole week. BUSY BUSY but i have to recover, physically anw, im in this terrible energy depth. ): ask xuannie la. OKAY GOT TO GO BYE(:

OMG SUJU SUJU SUPA JUNIORRRR!!!!
we were all gushing over the ultimate new song from suju: SORRY SORRY! whoooo!! i mean, its just AWESOME. AND STUCK IN MY HEAD. BUT WHO CARES! :DDD

ahhhh major fangirl activities today during chinese tuition la:D admittely, i think their dancing could be better. like, its a bit slow, and not that sharp. but its okay, their voices are... -swwoooonssss- just so melty, which moves like wine around a flute. even though i dont understand what exactly their saying, the beat is fricking catchy, and its stuck in my head naow:D siiiiiigh ahhhhh...~

and HENRY! WHY ARENT YOU IN THIS VID. henry is the awesome taiwanese-canadian violinist. sigh. who looks SUPER UBER CUTE.. in the hamataro way. rumour has it a fan even requested to pinch his cheeks. legend has it his contract forces him to say yes:D

!*^%#!!

anw. my maria is still just as awesome as everrrr~!!! hahah. i love my dad. even though she refuses to acknowledge me:D stupid girl. she only allows joey one hug every now and then, and that's cos joey will let her steal some food later. hehehehe but yeah, her blog ahh..

Everyone's having problems...

Person one got dumped.
Person two's parents forced her boyfriend into dumping her... but she got back with him... before being confessed to by person 3.
Person 3 probably wasted a lot of money buying that expensive chocolates~~~

EXPENSIVE CHOCS?! HAHAHAH. oh gosh, the rooms she's talking in! tsky maria. but still. i think person 3 would be too heartbroken to bother with the cost of expensive chocolates:D only maria can think of that la.

i cant believe it, im staying in school till almost 8 everyday.

these days anw.

bandage and higher art both screaming down my neck... ahhhh! im getting nightmares of mr soo, extreme lagginess... AND eyebags! D8 sigh. its almost as bad as common tests. but okay, for the sake of my hours... I SHALL ENDURE:D hehe.

typing out the spreadsheet for everyone elses' hours now. there's been an overwhelming response for help to the point i dont know what to assign anyone anymore... but many thank yous to everyone who came anyway:D im still trying to figure out who got howmany hours though, its all a mess now D8 i think i'll call chloe and scream for help. THANK GOD SHE HAS A PHONE TOO NOW, FINALLY...!!


ahhh. cant open my eyes. reached home at 9:15 today, super super super late for a thursday... i dont ever come home before the sky is dark. okay, gtg drag my sorry body through ELECTROLYSIS AND EXP 11.1 FOR CHEM.BIO TMR D:

goodnight!(:

Live my life around a picture
Taken when we met
Spending all of my time chasing your silhouette
For all we go through, I don't want to change you
Cause my minds running in reverse trying not to forget
Who we were
Where it's at
Here We Go (Here We Go)

Strugling with my thoughts
Change the locks inside my head
Reading between the lines
Of what you say, and what you said
I turn the radio on, to drown me out
Driving through the night to nowhere
Trying to forget
Who we were
Where it's at
Here we go (Here we Go)

And it's all
To the wind
It's all
In our heads
It's all to the wind
It's all in our heads

And we break
And we burn
And we turn it inside out
To take it back
To the start
And through the rise and falling apart
We discover who we are

And we break (we break)
And we burn (and we burn)
and we turn it inside out
To take it back
To the start (to the start)
And through the rise and falling apart
We discover who we are

I THINK THIS IS THE 17TH SONG I'VE STOLEN FROM MR ONG'S PHONE. :D oops shhh!
(but this perfectly describes my life)

DOSE OF REALLLITY! :D

these couple of days have been just awesome. as in seriously, awesome even till im actually spelling the word awesome ACCURATELY. (:

firrrrst.
MY MARKS. which have not been absymally high or top-of-the-class-and/or-top-of-the-level, but they're good enough for me.(:

PHYSIKS. 21. OMG. i passed, lets throw a partaye!!:D whooo. im so proud of myself. 1/3 of my uber nerd, unbelievably smart class failed. so im proud to be part of the 2/3 that didnt.. for once.. hehehe. (: ITS BETTER THAN NOTHING.

AMATH/EMATH. WHOOO MAJOR IMPROVEMENT TOO! i know my class got an epic 10+ full marks? hahaha. and sad to say i missed mine by tree marks. but wtf. i mean, what the FUCK, its not like i'll be an engineer:D hehehe. no big loss la, though i wish i'd gotten a higher A.

ENGLISH i got an A2, nyeh nyeh nie-nyehhh nyehhhh!!!!! hahahaha. really happy happy happy once again, i though i'd get an epic fail cos i was having a fever on that day. this is truely a thank-god thing i guess(: its all cos of Him that i still have enough retard cells around to answer ms bong's questions, essays, everything...hmmm(:

BIO ahhh sucks la! omg. only 22. but that's okay, it was mostly data based, so im fine with that. just hope to improve more? hmmm.

CHEM OH NO THIS WAS THE CRUEL ONE COS I LOST 8 MARKS TO USING BAD GRAMMAR. hahaha. ms yang was quite pissed i think cos i used shorthand for the last part, so she might not give the marks to me. ;-; but at least i understand the stuff now, hahaha. MUST CHEER UP VAL, AND MUG HARDER!(:

then chinese/lit, dont know yet, will get them tmr.
actually, i felt really really REALLY depressed today. i went to the sick bay for the first time in my life, and its quite a nice place (contrary to popular rumours IT DOES NOT SMELL LIKE DEATH. the pillows are pink.) and so i slept for like, forever. felt the dizzyness and stomachstopyourrioting leave, but decided wth, might as well skip chinese:D then later, i think i had a nightmare and when i woke up... i saw mr lee leaving. hahaha, how apt. :D

but like yeah, later when i went for chem tuition (there's just no escaping these things), i began to feel really depressed again. i hate loosing marks, esp if its losing them to stupidity. dont D8 me, i know ive been unusually harsh on myself towards these things. even though its partly being a sec4 and partly cos of my dad -he's also a perfectionist- but i get really bummed about these stuff. so i ended up talking about JC/NUS/suicidal classmates with my chem teacher. of all things random. but somehow the morbid stuff was cheering me up again la.:D then called sheryll and joey later, just for good measure.. haha. they're awesome friends la(:

OKAY WELL. i feel better, a least a lil... (: haish. must improve and fit in with the mugger couture! nerd is the new cool, at least thats what stong says. :P hehehehehehehe. OKAY OFF TO BIO HW AND BANDAGE PREP NOW. BYEBYE~

ps: OMG I JUST FOUND AN ANCIENT MICHAEL JACKSON AMIDST MY DAD'S OLD JUNK, UNBELIEVABLE. O:

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
James Morrison - Broken Strings

ahhhh i love it! I RIPPED IT OFF MR ONG but thats okay 8D
he has the whole library of everything on his phone, like the entire genre of Alternative! seriously. oh and some random others, like good charlotte and some MCR. but yeah... hahaha. its mostly explicite' or preposterous wordings though. i must have taken at least 10 songs on sat. &joey is obsessing that i havent sent them all to her. still, gotta censor out some things, it isnt fit for non-art people cos they're just not as liberal. ^0^
WELL ANYWAY THIS IS ANOTHER OF THE SONGS THATS SO ABSURDLY EGO...
(and i wont encourage you to find the rest of the lyrics)

I can take on anybody
I can do my thing
I don’t wanna hurt nobody
But a bee has got'ta sting
I’ma fix it if you mix it up (Hoo, hoo)
Talk smack, and I’ma gonna shut you up. (Hoo, hoo)

retard right! :D hahaha! mr ong ahh...
OH YES. HE'S LEAVING FOR RESURVIST TODAY! D8 so sad.! )":
farewell mini-party later. there's always parties when it concerns mr ong or art. 8D BE ENVIOUS ALL YOU LOSER GEOG STUDENTS. :D

ohhh hmmm other stuff.
/shit havent bought dave's present. forgot. pearlala isnt free either. SHIT.
/feels too lazy to answer any of his smses. oops. -daos-

/got elected into the St Luke's bandage committee thing. its so last minute, but how can we refuse them help? D8 sigh. me and chloe are cramming like mad now to help them finish the stupid preparations cos obviously no one started earlier, those lazy freaks -.- miss ho is giving us 20 people to work with, but even that cant make up for the lack of time. [insert sian face]
/ PINK CADILLAC AND GREEN VOLKSWAGEN, super retrrrrroo themes... :D
/ have to go bras basah AGAIN for art paper. ):
/ eh no, i think we'll have to shop at ngee ann. chloe has flag day. "oh noes changmin, oh noes!"
/ sunday sunday i want to go for lunch! but mightnotbeableto cos i have a quest to run. ):

/ got back physics, amath, ss, art. mixed reactions.
/ i expected WAY HIGHER for art. even though i got 76, which is supposed to be good cos stong had marked down everyone to push us harder... i wanted a 90. )': i hate it when i score below my own expectations, its worse when you dissapoint yourself even though everyone thinks otherwise.

/ on the contrary for FEESIKS.. it was better than i thought! passed it; though the overall score was considerably low... but then since 1/3 of the class failed D8 i guess i should be proud.
/ now ss and amath. both were an improvement. justnot as much as i hoped. im dissapointed again, see my comments for art.. apparently mrs heng is really happy with my ss.. but then WTH THAT CHLOE ACTUALLY GOT FULL MARKS FOR SBQ so its quite sao xing.

/what else. oh THE SPEECH. hahahah that was really a highlight of yesterday.
/ changed my topic to depression and suicide. HOT FAVE, APPARENTLY... hahah
/ somehow, it totally ties in with shannen, chloe and nina's topic! WHOO AWESOME.
chloe: ANGER MANAGEMENT PROBLEMS (but she used mr lee as an 'example' so the whole class was in fits)
vegh: MANAGING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. (use common tests and random other depressing cases, but apparently everyone thinks its funny too. oh gosh, my class is full of dark humour. they love the talk of depressionism:D)
nina: ANOREXIA. (something about hormones, but it was ironic since she looks anorexic. HMM.)
shannen: her topic was CAFFEINE IS GOOD SO WORSHIP IT YOU LOSERS (she just screamed it down our throats, but with a brit accent that comes out only when she gets scared, so we all started to laugh again)
hehehehehehe. okay somehow, all our epic topics were indirectly linked to HORMONAL IMBANCE!! 8D FAVOURITE BIO TOPIC. HEHE. okay so what an epic day, the lesson was more of a circus.



/ tired tired tired. i have no reason to feel depressed, but i actually do! D': or maybe im just tired. gosh, got back ache, arm ache, and even a pinkie ache -.- those stupid push ups. D< / okay I HAVE TO SLEEP MORE. sigh. i will try to go offline at like, 1030 now? D: hahaha.

BYE PEOPLE. HAVE RECESS DUTY FOR BANDAGE. (:

THE MOVIE OMG HOW IT SPEAKS VOLUMES
yesterday, i went with THE TWO JOEYS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY
NO WHERE AS AWESOME AS ME to watch:
He's Just Not That Into You

and its daaammmnnn sweeet!! omg. seriously, even though it sounds like a shallow chick flick, ITS NOT!! D8 me and joey spent every moment of the showing laughing or squealing our asses off. DAMN RETARDED.

i actually feel that what alix screams at justin speaks most sense about (some parts of) my life. shocking huh. i know matthew's been trying to tell that same thing to me for so long... but i didnt see it so clearly until now. sigh. go watch the movie and maybe, you'll find out what i mean;) even though we usually suan each other like mortal enemies, i sometimes feel so foolish when im talking to him, he's so much more mature than me, he's gone through more than what most people his age should. its just a pity that everyone already stereotypes him... D8


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YES WELL, THE REST OF TUESDAY WAS AWESOME!!

i ate TAKO PACHI THE SEXS again which is really not worth the $2.30 you pay for 3 balls of it, but its so divinely good compared to the cardboard porridge you get from the canteen that you're utterly grateful and pay for it anyway. hmm. i seem to eat nothing but tako pachi any time i go out. hrrrr~

then after the movie... going shopping -no actually its more of- and starbucks hunting with the two joeys!!! its like, joey hue is the sensible one, to bring me and jojo back to REALITY HELLO THIS IS PLANET EARTH while joey tan jojo is like whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! waaaay~ into the clouds and lost inside STONG'S-LALA-LAND!!:DDD hahaha. she's delusional, i tell you. but so am i:D

anw after walking along orchard road for three despicable generations, we finally found HMV. i bought my parent's aniversary present alr! though its months away and so expensive! O: but yeah, i was probably still hung over in the sweet sappy mood from the movie. well im hiding the thick album in my drawer for now... along with my other stolen shopping purchases:D heheh. not ready to admit to mommy yet!

then-uh. going home time... was quite painful for me. the 67 bus took really long to come, and there were so few people at the interchange. i was quite depressed then, even though im doing on the theme of a dystopic society for my Art Coursework (oh shit, reminds me i have 2 months left... AHHH ASDF!) but yeah. i suddenly felt really really sad, even though i didnt have a logical reason to. )))':
the whole place was just so quiet and oozing with soft yellow lights that casted more shaddow than anything. everything was jumping at me, i though this was some sort of bad trick my head was playing.

then well, things got worse. i felt really scared too cos i just remembered i was getting back my PHYSICS TEST (it turned out to be really good, but i didnt know that 12 hours ago..) aish. it was really really upsetting for me, and all sorts of horrible thought were blooming like weeds in my head. )': BUT WELL IT GOT BETTER, OF COURSE IT HAD TO GET BETTER! :D

it was then that i prayed and prayed, and after that, the mutilating thoughts went away(: the bus ride home in the end turned out to be a blessing in the end.. cos i spent the time talking to God too(: its always easier to pick out His voice in the quiet and stills. im still learning to trust Him again, to find him admid the rushes of life. (: i know i'll never reach perfection, but thats okay. i know im making journey and thats enough.

okay, sorry for putting this super emo post here. i hope if joey reads this, she wont think ive gone all depressed again and stalk me in hopes i'll get better. D8 hehehe... ahh. speaking of which,


i am getting a new blog. i SIMPLY CANNOT USE A PUBLIC ONE, not that i mean to be all secretive or insinuating that im an antisocial bearded hermit who prefers the life of a recluse:D its just that... i see my blog as a place to rant my emotions, thoughts, and put what i truely feel in my head down onto letters. i see no point in writing just what happened to me today, that's just reporting my life. if you're my friend, then you'll know whats going on cos you'll have been there with me at that point! other that that.. ahaha. i think this is partly cos i want to keep my groups of friends separate. its just a lil hard to handle if they all mix up, cos i know i behave and adress each group VERY differently. yes. therefore, i dont really trust myself to put my whole head and heart into page(:

okay well while i wont delete this, i'll still update... from time to time... but i just cant put anymore of my own thoughts here, especially since i have no control and no knowing of who's reading this. i wont be baring my soul so openly, if you'll all pardon me for NOT DOING SO. im just protecting myself(: i wont have people reading my mind, especially since im so painfully aware of how people can do that to you (just as i have, guiltily been doing so).

i am finding a place to retreat... into the arms of a dear old friend.
shhh... its okay,
close your eyes,
you'll drift,
to sleeepppp...