Wednesday, March 18, 2009
♥ 3:37 AM
i suppose the rest are Rated.because my rantings are really demonic? ahahah.ummmm. the moans of the unbeliever. pray this falls on death ears.denial is the most predictable human response. i wonder what happens if you actively choose denial then. is it still denial? or by choosing it, have you already faced reality and decided? then. which is worse.to believe in yourself, but have no one to believe in you-or to have everyone believe in you... except yourself.
this is exactly what i'd like to know.what's it like then, to taste everyone's faith but choose none for your own-or to be so skeptical you believe faith is but a necessary illusion we all make because our minds cant handle otherwise.as CSLEWIS so cleverly put, ''they were so afraid to be taken in they could not be taken out."right now, i currently believe that's my predicament.GOD I HATE THINKING IN CIRCLES GOD. DAMN. IT. GOD DAMN THIS ALL, SHIT SHIT SHIT HELL WHY IS MY MIND IS PLAYING TRICKS ON MEsave me from this unearthly hour, oh Lord, where the mind wanders far beyond what it should.
