THE MOVIE OMG HOW IT SPEAKS VOLUMES
yesterday, i went with THE TWO JOEYS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY
NO WHERE AS AWESOME AS ME to watch:
He's Just Not That Into You

and its daaammmnnn sweeet!! omg. seriously, even though it sounds like a shallow chick flick, ITS NOT!! D8 me and joey spent every moment of the showing laughing or squealing our asses off. DAMN RETARDED.

i actually feel that what alix screams at justin speaks most sense about (some parts of) my life. shocking huh. i know matthew's been trying to tell that same thing to me for so long... but i didnt see it so clearly until now. sigh. go watch the movie and maybe, you'll find out what i mean;) even though we usually suan each other like mortal enemies, i sometimes feel so foolish when im talking to him, he's so much more mature than me, he's gone through more than what most people his age should. its just a pity that everyone already stereotypes him... D8


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YES WELL, THE REST OF TUESDAY WAS AWESOME!!

i ate TAKO PACHI THE SEXS again which is really not worth the $2.30 you pay for 3 balls of it, but its so divinely good compared to the cardboard porridge you get from the canteen that you're utterly grateful and pay for it anyway. hmm. i seem to eat nothing but tako pachi any time i go out. hrrrr~

then after the movie... going shopping -no actually its more of- and starbucks hunting with the two joeys!!! its like, joey hue is the sensible one, to bring me and jojo back to REALITY HELLO THIS IS PLANET EARTH while joey tan jojo is like whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! waaaay~ into the clouds and lost inside STONG'S-LALA-LAND!!:DDD hahaha. she's delusional, i tell you. but so am i:D

anw after walking along orchard road for three despicable generations, we finally found HMV. i bought my parent's aniversary present alr! though its months away and so expensive! O: but yeah, i was probably still hung over in the sweet sappy mood from the movie. well im hiding the thick album in my drawer for now... along with my other stolen shopping purchases:D heheh. not ready to admit to mommy yet!

then-uh. going home time... was quite painful for me. the 67 bus took really long to come, and there were so few people at the interchange. i was quite depressed then, even though im doing on the theme of a dystopic society for my Art Coursework (oh shit, reminds me i have 2 months left... AHHH ASDF!) but yeah. i suddenly felt really really sad, even though i didnt have a logical reason to. )))':
the whole place was just so quiet and oozing with soft yellow lights that casted more shaddow than anything. everything was jumping at me, i though this was some sort of bad trick my head was playing.

then well, things got worse. i felt really scared too cos i just remembered i was getting back my PHYSICS TEST (it turned out to be really good, but i didnt know that 12 hours ago..) aish. it was really really upsetting for me, and all sorts of horrible thought were blooming like weeds in my head. )': BUT WELL IT GOT BETTER, OF COURSE IT HAD TO GET BETTER! :D

it was then that i prayed and prayed, and after that, the mutilating thoughts went away(: the bus ride home in the end turned out to be a blessing in the end.. cos i spent the time talking to God too(: its always easier to pick out His voice in the quiet and stills. im still learning to trust Him again, to find him admid the rushes of life. (: i know i'll never reach perfection, but thats okay. i know im making journey and thats enough.

okay, sorry for putting this super emo post here. i hope if joey reads this, she wont think ive gone all depressed again and stalk me in hopes i'll get better. D8 hehehe... ahh. speaking of which,


i am getting a new blog. i SIMPLY CANNOT USE A PUBLIC ONE, not that i mean to be all secretive or insinuating that im an antisocial bearded hermit who prefers the life of a recluse:D its just that... i see my blog as a place to rant my emotions, thoughts, and put what i truely feel in my head down onto letters. i see no point in writing just what happened to me today, that's just reporting my life. if you're my friend, then you'll know whats going on cos you'll have been there with me at that point! other that that.. ahaha. i think this is partly cos i want to keep my groups of friends separate. its just a lil hard to handle if they all mix up, cos i know i behave and adress each group VERY differently. yes. therefore, i dont really trust myself to put my whole head and heart into page(:

okay well while i wont delete this, i'll still update... from time to time... but i just cant put anymore of my own thoughts here, especially since i have no control and no knowing of who's reading this. i wont be baring my soul so openly, if you'll all pardon me for NOT DOING SO. im just protecting myself(: i wont have people reading my mind, especially since im so painfully aware of how people can do that to you (just as i have, guiltily been doing so).

i am finding a place to retreat... into the arms of a dear old friend.
shhh... its okay,
close your eyes,
you'll drift,
to sleeepppp...