Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ 3:13 AM
AHHH! I dont think i can get up at 5:45 fricking am tmr. ;-;i have so much physics homework to do... and seeing krystle act as a lesbian is rather disturbing. its not very motivating either. D8
i dont feel like going to church tmr. but shit, i shouldnt even be thinking that. recently... sigh. nvm. ive just been too tired to enjoy or do things properly, and today as i bussed back from yet another hectic programme i find myself wondering why.
sheryll said that sometimes, we derive our motivation and confidence from just having so many many many things to do. like we must build a whole pile-up of events to pressure up into staying in our character, or else we'd just break down because we reallise we dont know how to function with too much time on our hands.
yet.. in this case, i hope i wont ever end up like that. speaking about passion for God anw, this is something i found that quite helped me.
Many times we can be fickle and our passion for god can become lukewarm. Staying hot for god requires us to be faithful in our habit of daily spending quality time with Him. Being faithful means putting aside how you 'feel' at the time and just doing it. many times youre not going to 'feel' passionate for God, youre not going to 'feel' like worshipping him and youre not going to 'feel' like spending time with him. but if you are serious about developing your character ten you cant be driven by what feels good at the time. make a secision to be passionately faithful to god and stick to it regardless of your mood.
isnt that PRO? haha. okay that speaks quite enough volume into my mind for one day(:
