Thursday, October 01, 2009
♥ 1:11 AM
a typical conversation in the household:
walking past gen's room:
val: hey. NICE PANTS. (they're the pink ones with happy bunnies on them.)
gen: you suck!
val: ..well even if i suck, i'll still suck better than you! *catches the pun then makes pervy maria laugh*
gen: -shrieks- mooomm!!! val's-
mom: shhhh!! greedy heart is on!! i cant hear what that hu li jing woman says!
dad: nom noms. quiet girls, go study or something.
:D
hehe. my dad sounds like a total pig, doesnt he? D8 well yeah, he's just really stressed these days. ):anyhoo. i reallise i havent exactly been posting my mind here anymore.
i do feel like im bottling up
alot of stuff, that's bound to explode... D:
still, it hurts, really, everytime people unknowingly ask about it.
i just cant bring myself to tell anyone.
even though i know they're all there for me and stuff, all five of them.
i dont know what im getting into.
im avoiding msn like the plague,
and in school i cant face rae or sheryll anymore,
just seeing them reminds me more than anything.
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small consolation for me though!
thanks to my sudden hermit lifestyle, ive stumbled upon a whole trove of excellent zutaras. its amazing. these bloody writers are totally screwing with my mind, with the crazy emotional and immaculately detailed way that they write. they make you want to think more about life, while making you feel sort of emo and zen at the same time. like i said, they're experts at mind fucking. (honestly, reading ozai's mind about his child abuse and then ursa being a siren? no one can pull that off, but they did, and with much aplomb too.)
im not putting their links here, even if they are seriously amazing.
this stuff isnt suited for below eighteens, and for once i have to agree.
despite my shocking-and-liberal-experiences-are-the-best-way-to-learn stance.
azula's torture scenes take you on a mental spew, and you literally scoot back from the screen. (; // D8
the link is yours only upon request. i strongly suggest clearing your schedule for the day, its emotionally exhalirating but mentally exhausting. i'll prescript only one chappie per day, less if you cant take it.
