HO HO HO.

its been so long. and maybe im posting only because i reallised how important it is to keep friends updated, about your life,

even when they are half-way-across-the-world-i mean, on the other freaking side of town. its funny how such distance already feels like a whole world away. but doesnt that also mean that town is A world, MY world, for it to be what separates me from my friends?

gaaah. life gets stupider if you stare at it for too long.

today, when i was sitting on the throne, a thought occured to about possible careers. it seems i am always looking into my past for my future. i thought, writing- why not? i love editing. my english is alright, and since im doing ki, my content would probably turn out blasphemous and morbid and still fascinating. then, law.

scrolling down a few posts, i reallise it has only been 3 entries away since the law internship, yet a whole year has passed and here i am at the same internship again. (at least, i suspect so.) i wonder if my boss remembers me. hmmm.

okay, kinda need to study for promos. im really scared i dont get to keep my H2 or get my lit H3. i just want the school to offer it to me, okayyy??? yeah im a bitch like that. hahaha.

cos maria made me do this.
8D

You Scored as Moya (Farscape)

You are surrounded by muppets. But that is okay because they are your friends and have shown many times that they can be trusted. Now if only you could stop being bothered about wormholes.

Moya (Farscape) 100%
Deep Space Nine (Star Trek) 94%
Serenity (Firefly) 88%
Heart of Gold (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy) 81%
Millennium Falcon (Star Wars) 75%
SG-1 (Stargate) 69%
Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica) 69%
Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda) 69%
Babylon 5 (Babylon 5) 63%
FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files) 63%
Enterprise D (Star Trek) 50%
Bebop (Cowboy Bebop) 44%
Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix) 38%

oops. seems like though i heart star wars, im not cut out to be a bounty hunter yet. heh. :D

EATING: SUBWAY MMMM
DRINKING: COKE AND LEMMON TEA
LISTENING: Norah Jones, come away with me :)
MOOD: extremely contented, i feel like loving everyone. that's the way to go. ^^

meanwhile. i havent updated since... jc started! grah. but i just understood how easy it is to find people's blogs over the internet, and you never know who's reading :shifty eyes: ...life's kinda busy anyway.

got into: pre-u sem. IT SPELLS PUS. RIDA IS REALLY AMUSED.
YOG ambassador hosting thingy. cos of the little speech on maria's blog. XD
KI. blowing my brains out weekly. sigh.

..so this will probably be the last post for yet another long time. important stuff will be on the locked jjang blog:)

sorry and goodbye...

):

Trinity: six hours ago, i told the merovingian that i would give up anything and everything for you. but do you know what has changed in the last six hours?
Neo: no, i dont.
Trinity: ...nothing.

:)

though time has aged,
nothing has changed.
i still love you guys, and now,
a sudden hope that its forever. :)

LOL OKAY I WAS LOOKING FOR MONOLOGUES, AND THIS CAME OUT

The Fisher King
written by Richard LaGravenese

Jack: Do you believe in God?
Anne: Ohh! You gotta believe in God! But I don't believe God created Man in His image. 'Cause most the shit that happens is because of men. Men were made in the devil's image. And women were created outta God. 'Cause, after all, women can have babies--which is kinda like creating. And which also accounts for the fact that women are so attracted to men. 'Cause let's face it, the devil is a helluva lot more interesting. I slept with some saints in my day, believe me, I know. Eegh-boy! So, the whole point of life, the whole point of life is for men and women to get married so God and the Devil can get together--and work it out. (beat) Not that we have to get married or anything. (Mae West voice) God forbid.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

yay! just went to post val and joey's letters!:D

i bet you're probably thinking, what the fuuu-fish, veg, you actually took a walk!?

yeah, i did.

funny thing, i was actually wearing a skirt when i did it. it was this flowy maxi purple one that i'd long forgotten about, but discovered it while rooting around.

now yeah, you can blame this on the fever, or the fever medication, but i think its out of sheer boredom.. and the fact that im such an awesome eccentric person that i simply felt like.

and you know what?

it was fun.
hahaha. yeah! fun. and relaxing too. 8DDD

you know how people always tell you to slow down, enjoy the scenery, things like that, and you always think its crap? well. it isnt. while strolling to the bloody post box, i noticed for the first time ever, that the roses were in bloom. serious. there's this pot of plant outside my door that's never doing anything, but today it had a huge gorgeous rose in the middle! ^0^

and then, because it was midday, and there was no one around, i heard two pigeons cooing to each other. it made me want to fall asleep, only it was too hot and i was standing.. and then, i saw butterflies above the ixora bush, outside the pub. yeah its random, but the pub in my estate has butterflies to greet you while you're drunk. there were two of them, butter yellow, and chasing each other around. how sweet is that!??

i've reallised that butterflies are nuts because they can fly in the midday sun and not faint.

at the post box, i noticed that there was a short cut back to my house, if i can climb over the fence. i never knew! maybe its cos i usually only go at night, where its too dark to see anything. but yeah, if you manage to climb over the fence, its actually only a pretty short jump to the slope on the other side. gonna try that next time.

oh yeah and, on my way back, there was this hot guy jogging around... hahaha. speaking of which. i've generally noticed that most of my neighbours are rather hot people. the kids, i mean. those that i've grown up with and seen all their birthday parties and naked baby pictures... yeah. i think that the people in my estate really grew up to be beautiful, cos we all grew up in such a nice place. its not something you get everyday. i guess im a really lucky girl to live here.

YUCKS I AM SICK

-FEELS ACHEY ALL OVER
HAS SHIVERS AND SWEATS
WANTS A BATH.-

O level results and the whole posting process is such unnecessary emotional turmoil.

OH GOD. THE OLDIES IN MY OFFICE ARE JUST BITCHING ABOUT MARRIAGE.

i have come to the conclusion that all successful people are cynical about love. they honestly treat marriage like its a business deal!!

[and while everyone can talk endlessly about love, here is what i think. ive had ages on long empty bus rides to think about this, and i cant get eulogise anymore about this.]

(and if all guys think like this horrid hong kong - accented secretary, there wont be anyone left to marry.)

-plugs in mp3, tunes out nagging sexs+dating talk-

i tell you, this internship is... DOING WAY MORE BAD THAN GOOD! hahaha. so far, i have learnt more about which club is best for beer, how to tell if He Is A Jerk, Why I Should Not Date Now, and HAIRY GUYS ARE HOT! theories, than about trademark classifications or the legislative laws concerning data protection or patent protections. great. i tell you, that horrid hong kong secretary has had a bad past with guys. with the passionate way she elaborates about their debauchery, you would think all men had dicks for brains. and brains for dicks.

(oh, theyre talking about rape in marriage)

even though im only sixteen, i think at this age i am more mature than them. sorry, not really mature.. what would be a better word? i think, of better opinion. i feel that when you meet The One, you'll know. there is never really too early, or too late, because love hits when it hits, and its just some thing you cant control. while you shouldnt marry and pop out a whole brood of little demons, stop playing around and hold him close. yeah, i am such a romantic. but i would rather be stranded with love than with success and all its loneliness, as how this poor said secretary seems. when you've known love, and lost it, you'll know its too late. you dont want to be in the place for regret then.

(widower or divorcee?)

this is probably the reason why singapore is not having enough kids, because we are really too successful at everything else. and we dont believe in love. we want money, and we often dont reallise it until too late. i have seen my parents' friends have affairs, divorce, more affairs, some affairs only discovered at death... and it sucks to be heartbroken then. so you were saying, 'marry for money'? at this point, someone with innocent faith on love is better than your critical knowledge.


They way they talk about marriage... just screams "i havent got laid in too long".


it isnt right. we need more idealists. it seems as though she is afraid to love... she needs more audrey hepburn, breakfast at tiffany's and less of Wuthering Heights -.- it isnt good. she's poisoning all their minds!! OLD PEOPLE SUCK. they are horny, they want sexs, they believe themselves invincible against love... i dont think i want to go there. success glimmers until you get nearer, and reallise the glimmer is just their tears coating the cold wealth. ive grown up, grown cynical, then grown even older and decided it isnt considered living if you live a coward from love. how can you expect to find love later when you dont even believe in it?

sigh. love is not a game, and i think you've all forgotten how it feels.

while darkness is infinite, in the heart of its strength lies its weakness.
a single lone candle is enough to hold it back.
love is more than a candle.
love can ignite the stars.
-Matthew Stover

so, are you happy the way you are?